It's 3:41 in the morning and I feel a little nostalgic. I want to blog about a lot of things but I can't seem to gather all my thoughts and make a decent blog. I haven't done this in a while so excuse me if I trip on this one. Lately, I have been thinking about my Online buddies which by the way, I haven't heard of in such a long time. I know a lot of people know this, but before I got my "life" back, I used to be a bum at home with a laptop on my hand. I swear, I was the biggest loser in Modesto and I felt bad for myself. I tried doing things that could somehow stop me from isolating myself but I can't seem to focus. It fees like a part of me wants something...something I have to find out myself.

I thought it was my call for sports but dear God, right after that ball hit my head I said to myself I will never play that sport again. Then a job was offered to me a week after that but I'm going to take care of an Autistic child and I need to sleep over. I don't want to sound so maarte and all but I don't think I could handle that. I couldn't even take hold of James, wtf. Then this love for MR got me so interested and I began to research about her and stumbled into her "friendly abode." I started making friends the moment I signed up and I swear to God, they were the best friends I never had! Aside from the lovely lovely fact that we have the same likes and dislikes, we were all about the same age which made the discussions more interesting! After several months of looking for something that was missing, I finally got the last piece to my puzzle, it was my cyber friends. Actually scratch that, I don't consider them my web/cybe/online friends because they truly are my FRIENDS.

Since everybody came from different walks of life, we all learned from each other I think? Especially me. I learned a lot of tagalog gay linggos too! HAHAHA. And I have improved in Tagalog ever since I talked to them. I'm not saying that I can't speak fluent Tagalog because we usually converse in tagalog whenever I talk to my Mom, but it just got better! I became updated with the whatnots in the Philippines too because of them. I don't ask but they just talk about it and I love it. One thing I really love about them is that they never ever ran out of things to say. They just keep on rappin, and rappin, and rappin! They won't stop!!

But the thing that really touched my heart was when they started to talk about their lives to me and how their day went. Those little things that they share to me made me feel so special and I have never felt so trusted in my whole life. Knowing that you just met her online and you don't know a single thing about her yet she trusts you..that's the best thing ever! I was often told by some people that I should never talk to people online because they're too dangerous and it would give you nothing but a headache but they're were wrong! My friends proved them wrong. They were the greatest friends I never had and I thank God for that! It has been more than a year now since I knew them and I feel so bad because I haven't talked to them in a while. God knows how much I missed my life online but I'm quite happy having my life back too.

To Adrei, Hannah, Samantha, Leslie, and Ate Kate whom I was the closest to, thank you so much for all the time you've spent with me. Those late night convos in YM, our funny yet memorable chats over the forum and a whole lot more will always be remembered. I miss talking to you guys and I don't know what's up with you anymore. If I only have the power to juggle my time with my boyfriend, family, school, and online life then I would still be talking to you right now. But ever since we dated, I know I know, I just got so busy and haven't even been to the forum anymore. But anyhow, I'm just thankful that no matter how busy I am and though I kinda been ignoring your presence I could feel that you still consider me as you friend. I'm sorry if I kinda made you feel that way but that's not what I wanted to do. Probably I'm just a little confused on how to manage my time but I want you to know that I still care about you guys and I still want to see you when I get back. December it is! I hope I could all see you and spend some lovin time with you. :)))))))))) Thank you for your friendship and everything that goes along with it. Love youuuu guys!

P.S: This doesn't only go to those people whom I mentioned above but also to those people whom I got to talk to and who were really nice to me. I guess you all know who you are. Thank you so much for everything. :)) To all my Ate's out there you guys are the greatest!