Saturday, August 15, 2009
Livin with a Monster
So just like what my Facebook status is... "I am not happy at home anymore and I want to move out pretty soon." This has been an issue to my parents and to the entire Roldan family for months now. It pisses me off because they keep on going through my business when they don't have the "say" anymore. I am fuckin nineteen years old for God's sake, don't I deserve to have this kind of freedom? They would always tell me that even though we're here we still have to preserve our tradition and as we all know, no one leaves the house until they get married in the Philippines which is just plain bullshit.
I'm not going to go marry Joel right away nor get babies. We might move in together but that's the least thing I could do in order for me to get away from home. I'm currently unemployed and I have no dough so where do you think I'm going? And besides we're planning of going to Sacramento to finish college which is an hour away from Modesto. So basically, it would keep me away from home and since Joel and I will go to the same school I'm considering of moving out with him. We talked about this countless of times and he'll support me in everything I do and he would love to have me. But on the contrary, my parents are bitches and they wouldn't let me. They're just being selfish and they don't think I would be able to finish school if ever I move out which is totally untrue. I have dreams, aspirations, and wants in life and I wouldn't just throw it out in the bin. I'm going to be a Nurse and Joel and I will do everything to reach that.
My parents are just irrational. And aside from that, Dad and I never really agreed about something ever and we always end up fighting. I think this moving out thing would help strengthen our relationship because he wouldn't see me as often as we are right now and vice versa. And the house is not as peaceful anymore. Well, since when did we became peaceful? Like when Dad went home to the Philippines months ago? Seriously speaking, I want to get out of the house, primarily because of Dad. I never felt so peaceful and happy in my life whenever he's at home. It's either he'd make a HUGE drama about ME or he's scream like hell for no particular reason or if ever he had one he doesn't need to shout. I hate it when people yells at me and Dad does that everyday. I can't keep up with it anymore. It has been 19 years, I'm done with it. I'm just praying that I get to find a job that I want pretty soon and start earning so they wouldn't have something to say when I finally decide to move out. But my thoughts are FINAL. I'm going to move out soon. I'm just waiting for the right timing. I CAN'T TAKE HAVING A MONSTER AT HOME. Yes, and that monster happens to be my Dad. Sucks eh?
Have you ever felt the same feeling I do?
Do you have a good relationship with your Dad?
I'm not going to go marry Joel right away nor get babies. We might move in together but that's the least thing I could do in order for me to get away from home. I'm currently unemployed and I have no dough so where do you think I'm going? And besides we're planning of going to Sacramento to finish college which is an hour away from Modesto. So basically, it would keep me away from home and since Joel and I will go to the same school I'm considering of moving out with him. We talked about this countless of times and he'll support me in everything I do and he would love to have me. But on the contrary, my parents are bitches and they wouldn't let me. They're just being selfish and they don't think I would be able to finish school if ever I move out which is totally untrue. I have dreams, aspirations, and wants in life and I wouldn't just throw it out in the bin. I'm going to be a Nurse and Joel and I will do everything to reach that.
My parents are just irrational. And aside from that, Dad and I never really agreed about something ever and we always end up fighting. I think this moving out thing would help strengthen our relationship because he wouldn't see me as often as we are right now and vice versa. And the house is not as peaceful anymore. Well, since when did we became peaceful? Like when Dad went home to the Philippines months ago? Seriously speaking, I want to get out of the house, primarily because of Dad. I never felt so peaceful and happy in my life whenever he's at home. It's either he'd make a HUGE drama about ME or he's scream like hell for no particular reason or if ever he had one he doesn't need to shout. I hate it when people yells at me and Dad does that everyday. I can't keep up with it anymore. It has been 19 years, I'm done with it. I'm just praying that I get to find a job that I want pretty soon and start earning so they wouldn't have something to say when I finally decide to move out. But my thoughts are FINAL. I'm going to move out soon. I'm just waiting for the right timing. I CAN'T TAKE HAVING A MONSTER AT HOME. Yes, and that monster happens to be my Dad. Sucks eh?
Have you ever felt the same feeling I do?
Do you have a good relationship with your Dad?
Made love @ 12:46 AM
As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care.
Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)