Thursday, December 11, 2008
Overload
Months back, I remembered giving up on love. I remembered hating all men and my concern before was how am I able to keep up with 2 boys at the same time. I remembered telling God if He could spare me from this chickenshit because I am not going to love anyone that much anymore. I remembered telling Mom that I am not going to have a boyfriend not unless he is First love. I remembered telling Katrina that after 5 years I will be entering the convent and offer myself to the Lord. I remembered telling Tito Jesse that I won't consider having a long distance relationship anymore because it is so darn hard to keep. Just months back, I remembered telling myself that the only definition of love is Paula Roldan and no one else, but when I finally met Joel, things abruptly changed. I ate, swallowed and even digested everything I have said before.... and Love is not Paula Roldan anymore, Love is Joel Carlos Padilla!
Yes LOVE does hurt, it is forever confusing and it sucks most of time, but honestly? Love or rather my love for him is the only thing that makes me want to wake up every morning and greet sunshine with a smile. =D And yes Babe, I love you and God is my witness! I don't freakin care if some of my friends are being an ass and they don't approve for having you as the man of my life because in the end it's gonna be between you and me anyway. And, sooner or later they will eventually accept that fact that It is YOU whom I love and no one else.
Thanks for sticking with me Babe though I know there's too much temptation. I really appreciate that. Thank you for being the source of my happiness. Thank you tolerating my bitchiness especially when I have my PMS. Thank you for all the efforts you've exerted in our relationship and of course thank you for loving me just the way I am. =)) I may be too perky, too sabad, too childish, too immature, too drama queen, too CUTE hahahaha, too Paula Roldan, but one thing is certain, I love you and I love you and I love you and I will love you forever! HAHAHA. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life you!
Time Check: 3:01am
Made love @ 3:04 AM
As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care.
Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)