First love and true and ever lasting love differs. He is someone I share something with,a journey that takes a lifetime to complete. Its not all about finding someone else but finding your other half that would make you as one. He brings out the best in me, and holding on to that thought, I believe that just by being with him shall bring out the best life I ever could live. Love always happens but true and long lasting love happens once in a lifetime, and it happened. I found it once and never i will find someone like him. I've never expected before that I would meet him or be with him. Just like what I said, I thought what we had before we're just a big fat hoax. He was too hot for me and seeing a whole bunch of pretty girls swarming on his profile, my insecurity killed me that moment. Time went so swiftly that little did I know, I was already falling for him and for this "pseudo relationship" that we have, not realizing that what I feel for him was in fact, the most overrated word in the world, Love.

I don't remember how I started loving him, neither the day I realized I already love him. All I know from the very start is that, my love for him has no depth, its boundaries are ever expanding. My love and my life with him will be a never ending story. It will last longer than time, longer than forever. The memories we both have is like your LSS. You sing it over and over again and it just keeps playing. It's more of like a favorite song. No matter how many times it plays again, you never get tired of it.

The road to true and ever lasting love is never easy because it is so hard to find. I've hit all the bumps, crossed all the detours, but now I'm standing strong saying, Baby I love you til the end of time and I will never let you go. What we have is real, that no matter how far the distance between the two of us, our heart and soul travels through one's worlds. And we don't have to worry about that much anymore because we only have 2 more weeks left before we finally get to be together.

I love you even with your worst faults and flaws. I will forgive and try to forget your wrong doings. I will try not to be easily angered by useless things. I will forever trust you just like how I trust my life in you. We can't call this love real without problem, it has many obstacles, and I know we can make this work. We still have a lifetime ahead of us and with you by my side, we will endure this "unfair" and cruel world together.

People keep on asking me how much I love you, but I always leave them with a confused face because telling them how much I love you is a never ending explanation. Words won't be enough. I can't picture life without you. You painted my life, in times of darkness and I'm so thankful that I was able to meet someone like you. Someone I know that truly loves me, someone that I'll spend and share the rest of my life with until my last breath. You are my happiness, my life, my everything. I love you baby! Merry Christmas!

The whole Twilight saga has taken over me and my boyfriend like seriously. Edward was like pretty much the perfect boyfriend, and every girl swarm over him. While watching the movie, I can't help but compare the uber hot vampire to my uber hot mortal boyfriend. Though some people think it's unfair, I pretty much see Joel in Edward Cullen. Twilighters please don't bash me, I am just the "feeling" Bella and sorry ha, I am in love. :))

I can't believe that I still have to watch the movie the second time around before I could realize that the whole Edward Cullen concept just reminds me too much about him. He may never be the most handsome guy there is in New Jersey and in Bacolod, but he sure was attractive enough to have caught my attention. He may not be as sweet as Edward to Bella, but he makes sure that I feel loved by his kisses whether on or off cam, his texts, calls, and the little things he does for me when I sincerely need it the most. He might not have Edward's special mind reading power, but I never have to say out loud what I feel because he knows it even before I start talking, and it amazes me everytime. He may never be that super rich Edward who lives up in the mountains, but he is thoughtful enough to buy me something from time to time, even my family! He may never be a fast mover like Edward, but he always show up whenever I ask him to. He may never be like Edward who doesn't sleep because obviously whenever we are having our late night conversation, he always as in always fall asleep, but I know he is trying his best to keep himself awake no matter how late it is in New Jersey and how early he has to wake up the next day because I am not yet sleepy. He is not Edward who sparkles when the sun hits his skin, but he sparkles every time I see him smile. He may not be "that" extraordinary like Edward because he's a vampire, but you are extraordinary enough to be mortal and live his whole life with me.

So there, I guess I don't need to say more because I have said enough. I think those reasons were valid enough to make him feel that no matter how close I want Edward Cullen to be my boyfriend, I would never ever choose him over Joel. =))

P.S: DIABETES! DIABETES! Sorry for being such a cheesy Miga.





Months back, I remembered giving up on love. I remembered hating all men and my concern before was how am I able to keep up with 2 boys at the same time. I remembered telling God if He could spare me from this chickenshit because I am not going to love anyone that much anymore. I remembered telling Mom that I am not going to have a boyfriend not unless he is First love. I remembered telling Katrina that after 5 years I will be entering the convent and offer myself to the Lord. I remembered telling Tito Jesse that I won't consider having a long distance relationship anymore because it is so darn hard to keep. Just months back, I remembered telling myself that the only definition of love is Paula Roldan and no one else, but when I finally met Joel, things abruptly changed. I ate, swallowed and even digested everything I have said before.... and Love is not Paula Roldan anymore, Love is Joel Carlos Padilla!

Yes LOVE does hurt, it is forever confusing and it sucks most of time, but honestly? Love or rather my love for him is the only thing that makes me want to wake up every morning and greet sunshine with a smile. =D And yes Babe, I love you and God is my witness! I don't freakin care if some of my friends are being an ass and they don't approve for having you as the man of my life because in the end it's gonna be between you and me anyway. And, sooner or later they will eventually accept that fact that It is YOU whom I love and no one else.

Thanks for sticking with me Babe though I know there's too much temptation. I really appreciate that. Thank you for being the source of my happiness. Thank you tolerating my bitchiness especially when I have my PMS. Thank you for all the efforts you've exerted in our relationship and of course thank you for loving me just the way I am. =)) I may be too perky, too sabad, too childish, too immature, too drama queen, too CUTE hahahaha, too Paula Roldan, but one thing is certain, I love you and I love you and I love you and I will love you forever! HAHAHA. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life you!

Time Check: 3:01am







I only have one more week before my 4 week winter break!

Sweet!

But it would be a lot sweeter though if *ehem* boyfriend *ehem* decides to come down all the way from New Jersey, then I would be the happiest kid this Christmas! But I am not forcing you Babe okay? It's still your choice. I know it's too much to ask already since you just went here last week, plus your plane fare costs 3947236234240184 dollars but but but but I just miss you big time! =( Waiting til New Year is too long and I wouldn't take that. It's as if, life without you is so fckin hard. Maybe I just got used to our routine everyday when you were here. *Sigh*



Life without a boyfriend is easy shit.

You don't have to go online every now and then. You don`t have to wake up early nor stay late just to have a talk with him. You wouldn`t worry about eating up all your minutes. No one would clamor about me being a bitch. No one would tease you all the time. No one will bite my nose nor tickle my ilok! Haha. No one would bang me anywhere if he`s na umol. No one would tell me that I have to go ligo already because I "stink". No one would tell me na "Babe, sabad2 cmo". There`s no one to slap my boootay. I have no one to release all my emotions to. I have no one to hold hands with when he`s driving. I feel so safe whenever he holds my hand. It`s as if we could endure all the pain and we`ll face it together. I`m so cheesy! Hahaha. No one will treat me out for breakfast, lunch, dinner and midnight snack! Hahaha. ... blah blah blah. But I came to realize that....

not having Joel in my life would totally SUCK! I have grown to love the unusual things he does for me. All the biting, tiklod-ing, torture-ing! Haha. Babe, you are one in a million. I love you so much!


I can't believe that it's been a month already since the first time I saw you, and it saddens me everytime that I can`t physically be with you any time I want but in spite of that, I'm still truly, madly, deeply, and very much in love with you. What we're in right now is not easy (f-ck those evil forces), but I trust that we can make it. Kita pa, we the best! :) Hehe.

Thank you for being MY MAN, for staying true and honest.


You are such a blessing.


I love you so much babe. Happy 1st month to us!

I feel so lucky for having him in my life. He never fails to make me smile whenever I'm chap fallen. I don't know! he's just that amazing. Indeed, He's the 8th wonder of my world. :) I thank God, as in I really thank God for him and the (unfavorable?adverse?) situation we're in. I will love him more as things get worse [I mean me PMS-ing and all. haha! but really, the discouraging distance, my i-wish-i-can-hug-you-ala-Barney moments! haha
Giving up is a NO NEVER NOT. naaa-ah. *snap, snap!*

I LOVE YOU BABE!