Sunday, November 23, 2008
We`re even!
Feeling pain is somehow great---the type of pain that defies our solidity; the one that proves us that we are not all that insensitive; the one that remind us that someone can still get the best of us. But we shouldn't let it take a toll on our self-esteem and destroy the rest of ourselves (that would be shallow for someone like me who wants a rational-slash-memorable death). We should put to mind that when we can only get hurt once we're loved. This my sound over rated, but when we love, pain comes along with it. And that`s so true.
I`m so worn out but I`m damn okay. The facts are aggravating but I love it damn too much; they make me feel real and alive though it's not that overwhelming. I may not be the best girlfriend but I learn from all my flaws. Oddly, it adds to the excitement or thrill of a newly sprouted relationship. K, what the fuck, sprouted.
I just don`t want to deal with this anymore. I`ll let her win. I`m so done with this, ano binatbat ko sa 3 yrs and 4 months? Hahaha. So there you go, a conclusion to all this madness. I could only careless, I wouldn't let anything ruin everything. I guess if she still loves him, why not. As long as I know he loves me and not her, I`m good. What`s only irritating is that she`s keeping with me like. I`m like what the fuck? What for bitch? But whatever you know, I`m in not position to restrain her from doing it, so why stop her? "It's a free country" I`ll let go of what frustrates me. If I let it frustrate me, then she wins.. Two points for her. Zero for me. If I don't, then I guess we're even. :P
BOOM. All is solved. At least, I think it is.
P.S Thanks bitch, you have been really helpful. Haha. Thank you for waking me up early in the morning just to tell me something was wrong and all those crap. Thank you big time.
Made love @ 2:41 AM
As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care.
Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)