Friday, November 14, 2008
I`m mad as hell.
I`m sorry but I just have to let this out!
I am having a hard time tolerating this kind of relationship, seriously! Though I love him beyond words, it is just so fuckin hard. :(( The ex girlfriend is forever disturbing, irritating and kills my bliss big time. How come she can`t darn move on? I pretty much understand that they have been together for more than 2 years, but that doesn`t give her the right to check up on MY boyfriend all the time, calling him everyday, and act as if they`re still together. Yes, you guys are friends, but what the fuck? Can you not get the picture? He is here, you are there. There is no way for you guys to rekindle whatever you had before. It is now me who he loves, and not you. So please, please lang gd ya, lihog, leave us alone.
If you think he`s still into you, then we wouldn`t be together right now. If you think he still cares for you, then why would he waste too much money and would come down all the way from NJ just to see me? If you think things are not yet over for the both of you, then why would he go back to Cali AGAIN next week just to be with me for one full week? If you think he still loves you, then why would he leave his life in NJ and plans to move here in Cali? Now, you tell me.
"If in one point in your life and you find yourself loving two person at the same time, go for the second one. Why? Because you wouldn't fall for the second one if you truly love the first one in, right?"
I am not saying I`m neither a third party nor a home wrecker because I never was- never will. He was single when we started dating, and it was just YOU who assumes that you guys are still together. Please stop, seriously.
Made love @ 1:40 AM
As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care.
Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)