Monday, November 10, 2008
I feel blah.
I was walking pretty slow up to room 210 when Ruben bumped into me and asked if I was okay. I said I was fine, but he insisted. I was about to spill the deets when Mrs. Stovall called us outside the room and told us class will start in a while. I was slouching in my chair when another person came up to me and ask if I was okay. It irritated the shit outta and said IM OKAY! Mrs. Stovall heard me shout, so she started to calm everyone down and were asked to sit with our groups because we will watch the Presidential speech. I walked towards group 5, at the far right corner of the room and just sat there. I heard them mumbling some words, but I can`t seem to comprehend. For a sec, I thought my world suddenly stopped and it was just me. Nicole tapped my back and asked how I was, "I`m cool", I said. Lauro laughed at me and said "Obama just finished talking. Did you even wrote something?" I swiftly jot down some words that was somehow similar to them and acted as if I saw the entire speech. "The speeches went by really fast!" I said. "Uhhh, that was pretty long. 13 minutes from Mccain and 19 from Obama? Too much lying right there!" I was stoked in my seat and I never thought 33 minutes has passed. Discussions came and I was staring blanky on a piece of paper. Little did I know, I was looking through a piece of paper where his name was repeatedly doodled. Shit. Right when I saw his name, I felt like in a snap, I was back. I don`t really know how to end this blog, I`m just out of my mind lately and everything seem to be just a blurr. I have not kicked in a smile since this morning and it sucks. CONFUSION overload. God I need answers. I`m becoming too preoccupied about the stupidest things and I`m not liking it. I have too much responsibility to attend to and its`s just so frustrating that I can`t act "normal." I`m really sad right now, but I will keep my chin up as if my nose is bleeding.
Made love @ 2:52 PM
As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care.
Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)