As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care. Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)

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Never underestimate the power of love, it can definitely make you do things you won't normally do, it pushes you out of your comfort zone, it can make you feel like you are on top of the world but it can also tear you down into little tiny pieces and it can take you over completely.

One of my greatest fear was to fall madly in love. The kind of love where you would sacrifice everything for that one person, there is nothing wrong with that but if you grew up witnessing a lot of people giving everything they have for this one special person then it ends up to nothing, and all they are left with is nothing, it can definitely put you off love. It's heartbreaking to see a person fall out of love, especially if that was everything they wanted. Since I have learned from my mistakes, I told myself that I will never love a person with all of my heart, soul and everything. I just didn't want to see myself break into pieces AGAIN and be left with nothing. I never did like pain and I don't think I'd be able to handle it again.

But look at me now, currently deeply in love with this wonderful man. Yes! I have eaten, swallowed and digested every single thing that I have said before about not falling madly in love. Where did my bitchiness go? I thought I promised myself that I will never love again? And if in case love comes along, I`d just shrug off? Haaaay, it's amazing what love can do to you.

I know myself better now, I ain't stupid. I know the consequences of my actions, I know that if we fall apart I will be left with nothing and it will hurt like a bitch. The fear still strikes me at times, but I couldn't care less, I've never felt so happy, loved, completed and contented in my whole life. He is everything I have ever wanted and what we have is so darn wonderful. There is no way I'm going to let a stupid fear hold me back! True love comes, and it only comes once!

Even if we do fall out in the end, at least I know I have given him everything that I have and did everything that I could for both of us. I will always love that man, always and I will never ever find another man like him. =))