Geez, I hate myself for being such a drama queen. I know life is all about drama, but in my case, drama is an everyday thing. I have no clue if I am indeed a Bipolar (haha) or my mood swings/bitchiness is just caused by my PMS, seriously. I hate it when I blubber over petty things. It`s so immature. I know when there is love, pain comes along with it, but that doesn`t mean that I have to mull over it every day right? Fuck. Looking back on how I was before emotionally, things haven`t changed that much and I hate it.

Being in love is a magical feeling. The emotions are strong. It is so exciting that it may be hard to juggle both school and family responsibilities. Sometimes people confuse real love with the possessive love they may see on TV or the movies. They believe that love is only love at first sight. But really, mature love takes more time to develop. A lot of teens, count me in, believe they are in love once they feel the giddy feeling inside their tummy. Once they feel that someone cares and loves them big time. But, is it all just about that?

When we`re in love we “sometimes” give up all our friends just to be with him/her. Sometimes, we even stop doing the things we normally do just because our “other half” doesn`t was us to. We tend to be super possessive and won`t let our partner go out to party, for they might just flirt around and forget that they have a girlfriend/boyfriend. We get really jealous of any time our love ones talks to another person. Others are forced to do things they do not want to do, which could lead to unhealthy relationships/immature relationships. I have been in an immature relationship two years ago and honestly speaking it was hell.

My Ex boyfriend doesn`t trust me and he doesn`t even want me to go out and socialize. It was indeed Martial law. What he wants me to do is just sit at home and do nothing. There were a lot of “don’ts” and because I loved him too much, I followed every rule he bestowed on me. But then I thought, if he really loves me, he will trust me and will let me go out and socialize. God, we have known each other for years before we dated, so he knows pretty much a lot of me already. I didn`t see any reason why he should keep me at home because my exes before him is out and about with their present girlfriends! Haha! THERE WERE NO REASONS AT ALL. But to top this, all I want to say is that I don`t want to be in an immature relationship no more.

Aside from the fact that you get to have a lot of rules to follow, you don`t get be YOURSELF. There`s always this big wall in front of you that hinders you to do things. That is not love. If you love someone, you will let him/her be. You will trust her/him no matter what. If he/she cheats on your, it`s already out of your responsibility because you know you did your part. Mature love lets you be you. You can be yourself, and respected for it. People who share mature love do not see the other person as the solution to their problems. They see the other person as a wonderful gift. They spend time with each other's families and friends. Mature love relationships do not cause people to give up their values rather helps them to keep it.

I`m sorry Joel for acting like a total bitch last night. I know I should`ve just stopped bitching and talked to you instead. I know you tried to keep your temper, but I was just in controllable. I`m so sorry, I swear this won`t happen again. “Immature love” took over again last night, I swear last na to. I`m so sorry. :( I love you Babe always and forever!