Sunday, October 26, 2008
Am I a bipolar?
Okay I just realized that my last two blog entries were very much melodramatic and not to mention, very dragging. >:p I`m sorry, I was just exaggerating things yesterday and I had my PMS, so that pretty much explains it all. Haha. I feel a lot better now, thanks to those people who cheered me up yesterday. Thank you Ava, who sent me a comment both Plurk and in here, to my online friends who kept me sane the whole day and to my forever endorphins: chocolates. Without you guys, I could`ve died yesterday. Haha. Over, pero it`s true, I owe you one!
Lately, I have been acting like a total bitch and I don`t like it. Well, though admittedly, I am one (hahaha), it happens very rare. I only bitch around when there`s something to bitch at, but other petty reasons? Oh hell no. It`s so ironic how I bitched at people this weekend just after my midterms. Beat that! I know I should be happy and all because I`m so done with it, and I won`t have any tests not until finals, but it`s turning the other way around. Blame it on my PMS. Shit. or do you think I`m turning BIPOLAR? Haha. Oh please nooooo!
Every time Joel and I talk on the phone he`d go "Para kang bipolar. Minsan super happy, tapos minsan puro drama." I know he was just kidding, but it really hurt my feelings. I don`t find it funny, seriously. Quoted as being a bipolar is not a normal thing, I mean c`mon, when you`re bipolar it means there is something wrong with you. You need to consult a freakin doctor, it`s an illness! Waaaah. I know in my heart that I am not a bipolar, I`m not even on denial because it`s the truth. Maybe I`m just exaggerating things and thinks way beyond the normal thoughts, that`s why. What do you think? :|
Made love @ 3:58 PM
As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care.
Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)