Monday, September 15, 2008
Back on track!
It`s almost morning!!!!!!
I can`t freakin put myself to sleep. I was already in bed 30 minutes ago when I decided to get up and check First Love`s comments. I know, it`s so random. I checked my over 4 thousand comments in friendster and it almost took me forever before I could finally get the hold of them. His last comment was in 05 I guess, so what do you expect? :) All of them were short but sweet and there was this extremely long one and he sent it two times. I wanted to post it all here but I was likeee never mind. I don`t to bare his identity, so there. Lol
After reading his comments for more than 348725 times, I decided to make a video for him, a music video I should say. lol. I sang my favorite song which is, The way I am by Ingrid Michaelson and it is as well my song for him. The song`s kinda mushy it`s about a couple who takes each other`s imperfection perfectly. I know we`re not a couple or whatsoever, but I don`t know; everytime I hear the song on the radio, it makes me think about him.
I swear this is the first song I unbolted in public and it`s all because of him! OMG. :)) Hahaha. See, what love can do talaga! lol. Well anyway, I`ve been getting querries lately about my "fake zanjoe'. To tell you guys honestly, I am so over him. He could die now for all I care. :) My "thing" with him just made me realize that no matter what happens, no matter whose you`re flirting with, no matter how strong the feeling is, First Love never really dies and I just want to thank "fake zanjoe" for making me realize that! What I felt for him was not love after all. It was just a god damn infatuation and never in my life I will engage in the same situation, never!
So now, I am back on track and I am back in being a prisoner of love. I love you first love, always have, always been.
Made love @ 2:23 AM
As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care.
Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)