There are only a few people who knows the real me. The cry baby super soft harted me. Infact I have so much love within me that I am willing to share, I have soo much sweetnees that I am willing to show, so much effort that I am always willing to exert but you know what sucks?

As time pass by and as I meet new acquaintance, new friends, new prospect lovers, new suitors and new boystoys they just get "assier" "suckier" "tae-ier" and all the nasty things you could think of. So do you think I still have all the strength to bring back the old me? Mann, I have had enough!

I thank the Lord for He has been very good to me lately. He made me realized quickly that if you`re weak, sweet, naive and gullible enough, people will take you for granted. They will never ever consider your feelings for they think they "own" you and all these are for plain FUN. Like damn you? For heaven`s sake. Nobody really owned me. Asa ka pa! Now I know the mechanics of PLAY and be PLAYED. I`ve been played so many fuckin times. Yes, I was indeed played by numerous of guys. Well not really but I could name a few but I would rather not.

To those people who did me wrong? Thank you and Eff you because now, I learned how to fight and play games better than you do.

If you think I`m just another bitch down the road, you better think twice because baby, I am bitchier than ever.
I am feisty as feisty could get.
I amStronger, smarter and better.
The new and improved me.

People say revenge is sweet? Well suprise surprise baby, it`s payback time and I will get on your nose as soon as I can. All the boys who took me for granted, to all the boys who toyed me and thought I was Barbie for awhile, you will be seeing me more frequently- putting my middle finger up and I saaaaaaaaaay "fuck you. You just slip the girl of your dreams and you will never ever fckin findo another girl like me." Chyeaaaah.

And ugh no. I was never the pa easy to get kind of girl. Never. I`m more of like Miss. Wants to know everything before actually talking to the guy.

Let`s just put this way.
I was just weak back then and they took the advantage of it. I was never the type of girl who says "yes we're together" right after having sex on their first meeting or right after they kissed on their first meeting. I was never like that, it just so happen that my "love suspects" were a little gentle, they were a little careful and I thought it was realy for realz.

But Uh-uh. Those ways of flirting will be banned in my dictionary. I will be more careful and this time it`s not going to be them who will enjoy, it`ll be me. :D I`m a little flirt so I advice the lonely boys out there, to ugh watch out. Just like what I said in my previous blog, I don`t do forever I only do flings. The only time that I`d engage myself in the word "forever" is when I`m with my First Love. YES. I hate him but at the same time I fuckin love him. No questions asked. But for the mean time, I will play their games. I will be enjoying every moment of it! Seize the moment! HAHAHAHA.

They say Life`s full of shit?

Yes it is. Life`s full of shit, so shit with it. Just like I`m shitting on love! :D