Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Make me feel better
K, I`m depressed. :
I freakin got a low grade on my last speech which was the persuasive speech.I already have a feeling that I will be getting a low grade but idk, I just feel so bad. I feel so dumb. I got 40 out of 50. That`s A- or B+ I`m not sure but I am still not contended with my grade. I mean I know I could`ve done better, I just didn`t give my best. : I procrastinated a lot and didn`t memorize single shit so I ended up reading my entire oral footnotes and tripped some words. Hella embarassing. And my VA's didn`t work out very well as what I expected sooo yeah. : I`m just a little sad though because there`s no way that I will be getting an A in that class. That`s just so impossible. It`s even more frustrating now because this is my very 1st class in college and it was one easy shit but I didn`t even do good at it. : Very BULL.
Maybe I was just a little confident last time because when I had my Informative Speech my professor said he was impressed and shiit and I just turned that down. : Shit shit shit. I haate myself. I seriously need to focus. Damn it. :
Now I am really determined to pull off a ground breaking nerve wracking high energy kind of speech next week. I swear to God I will leave my classmates in awe just like what I did on my informative speech. I just hope and pray that I will still be getting atleast a B on thi class. I seriously won`t take a C, I will surely get my ass soberrrrr or I might do suicide. HAHA. Kidding. :))
But seriously though, I think I did very well on my 1st 2 speeches but I just blew my Persuasive and Midterms so I`m kinda scared buttttttttt let's just hope and pray for the best. Pray for me. Pray that I might get atleast a B or something. I don`t want to walk out on that class getting a passing grade, that is just sooo not me. I only walk out on class with a passing mark on Math, not Speech class or any English related class. HAHA.K bye.
Make me feel better. :
Made love @ 10:42 AM
As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care.
Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)