My girl is ending soon. :(((( Boo. My friend Louise and I are very much lamenting right now because we just realized that it`s almost coming to an end. Like wow, My Girl went by really fast!! We`re not really a Kimerald fan but when we started watching My Girl, gosh we just can`t get enough of them. Even our friends from school would come asking us what the heck is My Girl because we pretty much talk about it all the time and we`d scream our asses of remembering the last scene the night before and of course their very first kissing scene. God, that was just the sweetest thing ever. Louise and I were even on the phone when that happened and we were hecka screaming!!! :))))

And ugh, excuse my tackyness cuz I even joined their mygirltv in Multiply and would post random message. I`m so freakin addicted to it and it is just so sad because it`ll end this friday. :((( Boo. My girl makes our day and it does lessen the burden we`re getting from school works and such. It`s that 30 minutes that we`re always looking for everyday. Now that My girl is coming to an end, it really saddened us (especially Louise- she`s 10 times more addicted) and even wished on 11:11 that Abs Cbn would extend the show because it`s just so freakin good. But just like what Nelly Furtado said in her song "Good things come to an end". God has his reasons and I guess we think we know what it is. :)))) Because since school is already starting God might want us to concentrate more on lessons and not concentrating on the next scenes of My Girl. HAHAHA. :)) Seriously, we thought about it last night so we were like OKAY, fair enough. :))

But anyhow, we just want to congratulate the rest of the My girl barkada for pulling up such a good show. Thanks for rocking our lives at 330 pm here in California. You made our Summer worth bumming for. Lol.


They were right. Maybe I just misunderstood his sweet gestures and whatever that was going on between us that very moment and I completely forgot that this guy right here is one helluva chick boy. Dang it, I almost forgot. I thought I changed. I thought I was smarter, now that I am 18 but yudiputa nga shit, I never actually changed. I`m still the good ol loser when it comes to love and I friggin hate it. I swore to myself that I will never ever let another guy shit on me and make me one of his barbie dolls. But what the fuck happened?!

Did I just allow myself to be his "other girl" and not having the notion about it? Or actually I knew something was not right but I just ignored it because it wasn`t what I want to happen that time? Did I just fool myself and created illusions that what we have is actually something "real"? Was I too quick to judge and gave crazy meanings for the smallest things he did to me? the gentleness he showed me? the likeness or whatever it was he was showing me while we were talking? Was it true or did I just imagined it all? Yudiputa.

I`d like to think that I`m neither crazy not assuming. That I was not alone in feeling the spark when we`re having our mushy conversations. That he meant everything he said. That he really wanted to see me before he actually left for some reasons. That he really woke up hecka early because he saw me online. That he wants to talk to me because he likes me or if it wasn`t like, atleast felt strongly about me.

Fuck, I am lost and I don`t know what to do. I could still talk to him though but I`m sure as fuck that I will just arrive at nothing. BS.





Gossip Girl Season II Promo Video.


Gosh, can I die? I`m gonna die! Chuck and Blair moments once again. Gosh, gosh, gosh. It`s coming, it`s freakin coming!! I`ve been spoiling myself since this morning. I`ve been watching videos of Season II`s first 5 minutes/1st 10 minutes and whatnot. And the more I watch them, the more I get excited like damn. Seriously, I swear when Sunday comes I bet my ass I won`t get myself to sleep because I`m too excited. LOL. God, I can`t wait for Monday, motherFckr. I so like going to freeze people`s lives here at home on Monday 8pm cuz I don`t want to hear any noise. Danngggg. Monday please come quicklyyyy!


I`m confused. Dang it. Sorry na, super bare ng post. I can`t state everything here eh, people might come here and malaman laman ko na lang my new issues nanaman about me. Haha. But anyhow, confused ako sa LOVE. Yun na yun. Akala ko dti sa Math lang ako macoconfuse e. Naknang!


College life is blah.

Little by little it`s taking my social life away and I don`t want that to happen. :| I know that if I`d engage myself into studying and shit I would would get high grades and would totally make my parents proud, but what the hell I don`t want to be the Nerd Next Door. Haha. It doesn`t mean that if I`m Asian, I would be the "stereotype" one. Hell no. Seriously I`m likeeee more of like a white girl. I study but I put more time on going online, shopping, doing unnecessary things and just be blonde. Oh God. I could pretty much sense where I`m going. Dang it. Haha.

Second day of school was pure hassle. Gosh. I won`t elaborate more since I`m so not in the mood right now, so yeah. But one thing made me mad today though. Damn Woodside! She`s my Socio101 Professor and she`s hecka tight like damn and Karl didn`t even told me about it. He was like "okay lang sya." Dang it, it`s not that "okay lang sya" TEROR GD SYA YA E! Hahaha.

Socio101 spells the word fuck. I never thought Socio would be this fuckin hard. Imagine, it was my first day in that class today and guess what? We already have to do some critical thinking shit and that`s due the next day. So how was that huh? Pretty savage. And she hecka gave 4718471894 papers and I`m like what the hell is this for? And she was like, well that`s all for chapter one alone! Like motherfucker, craploads of papers for only 1 chapter? Maaan she`s sick. But anyhow, I have nothing else to do but do read the notes because I promised my Mom that I will try and focus on more important things. And that is- school. :)) Oha oha. Meaning, no boys for now and the flirting will continue later on. Haha. Seriously, I have to nail all my subjects cuz if I won`t Mom might not send me to LA and get into the the program I was telling you guys the other day. So I really have to behave. :)

So that`s all for now. I`m like heccka sleepy right now but I still have things to do. I`ve been sleeping in, in the past 3 hours so I have to make that up. Haha. Damn it. Why does college have to this hard? Well not really but damn, every time I go home I feel like I`ve been doing something strenuous. Seriously, I feel dead right when I get home. Like boom, after 5 minutes I`m asleep. Haha. So there, I pretty much summed up my 2nd day. Horeeeeey.

P.S: My friend Ana and I were hecka laughing the whole morning because there were like heckaaaaaa Asians at school. Like damn, we felt like the entire people Asia migrated here already. Hahaha. Seriously, cuz everytime we turn our heads or everytime we move to places, they're there like Wow! Hahaha. :)) Koreans and Japanese everywhere MUUUUUCHHHH!


I want move to a freakin private college like right now!! :| Mjc sucks big time and just like any other Junior Colleges it would pretty much take me forever before I could finally get into the Nursing program, so fuck it I want to go to ACC! But since it`s a private college it would cost me 2 to 3 times more than the usual payment we pay in MJC but dude, it would only take me one year to become a Nurse and God knows how much I want this! How much I want to be Nurse and work my ass in those stinky hospital this early. Damn it. :|

Thirtyfuckinthousand dollars is no joke. Thats like worth over a million!!! Baaaah. I don`t know what to do. Dang it. My friend told me that there`s still financial shizz and whatnot but Idk, I still have to ask Mom though. :| I`m so like super depressed right now cuz I so envy her for she`s only 7 months away before she could finally label herself as a "Nurse" damn iiiit.

Can someone lend me 30, 000 dollars? :)) I`ll love you forever if you could hand them down to me before this year ends. :))

We just finished watching Beyond Conspiracy: Ninoy Aquino 25th Death Anniversary in TFC and it just struck me like hell. I seriously never knew the importance of the color yellow back then and their hand gesutre pretaining to the word Laban. All I knew back then was that Ninoy was shot by a gunman and he became our Hero. But after watching numerous documentary on YouTube and their latest was the Beyond Conspiracy, I`ve grown to realize the importance of the word Laban and the powerful color Yellow.

I wrote this blog entry not because I`m just being random yet again but because I admire Him so much and who would`ve thought that somebody could ever sacrifice him/herself for the sake of his/her countrymen? If you were to ask me if I would love to be shot down right this very moment only to prove the love for my country, that would be a big fart no maaaan, kiss my ass! But for Ninoy, it was a piece of cake. He even told his wife that he would rather be assassinated than being under house arrest.

Ninoy one of the only few people I know who definitely has the most genuine heart ever. He was brave, he was courageous, he never back down from anything. Even that bullet that killed him 25 years ago still didn't stop his heroic. Now I could pretty much say that Ninoy is indeed my hero. Can you imagine what he could have done for our country if he were allowed? He would have brought the Filipinos the dignity and pride we so desperately need now. Without him, who knows maybe up to this moment we might be still under the Marcos' regime.

Let us not forget about Ninoy, let`s not forget that because of his death he buried with him Marcos`dictatorship and lead in restoring democracy. He is our modern-day Rizal who used his talent in writing in oder to be heard. He is the Philippines` Gahndi who used non-violence in fighting for freedom.

I am Paula, and I am Ninoy.
There is a Ninoy in all of us.
*I was just moved by the documentary I`ve seen earlier, that`s why I was able to blurt this serious shits out. Thanks for taking your time reading this. :)) It only meant that you did not forget about Him. Let the Ninoy in us lingers foreverrrrrr!


It`s funny how teens nowadays refer their crushes or special someones. Yes people, I am talking about Code names. I know I have done it as well back in the days and even made stupid code names such as

• Toothbrush
• Sky
• Dinosaur
• Lico (pronounced as LYCO)
• and my weirdest code name was Unat- literal meaning.

Pretty stupid, yeah? I know every teens go through this stage and make their own code names and such for but the new generations tend to make even weirder code names, like they don`t have any sense at all. I know mine was a little weird but hey, atleast they`re common nouns except for Lico and the other one was a noun so I don`t consider it super weird at all. Plus their code name correspond to what he is and who he is. Like for instance toothbrush. I named my crush` toothbrush only because he had super white teeth back in High School and it was pretty much his assest so there. But now? I don`t really get why teens are so aggressive in giving out code names. Hahaha. I know it`s not my problem to tackle and think about but I just seriously find it funny!

I was on friendster awhile ago and I was looking through some of my friends` profile and I saw this one girl telling her friend about her "special friend" and she named her "special friend" as coinstar. Like wtf? Haha. Coinstar? That`s not even a word. I tried looking it up in the dictionary and I couldn`t find that freakin word! So now that`s weird. ;) See how teens tend to make things more complicated? Hahaha. But anyways, why am I even blogging about code names and COINSTARS? :)) Hahahaha.

TATAH!


Aright! Taglish post ahead. Pardom my kaartehan.

So mkay I still have like what? 2 more days to bum around the house, stay up late and wake up late before I finally engage myself into studying. Gaaaaah, hehello college na ko next week. Omg, I know I don`t have to be stressed out because as they saying goes "mas masaya pag college". Oh well, fuck that. Masaya lang siguro if I`m in the Philippines but here? My gaaaah, I`m so noooot masaya. Okay first of all, I am apparently going to a low class school. It`s not a University not even a State Univ, damn that shit. I am only allowed to go to a Junior College only because I wasn`t able to get my SATS and ACTS. So okay na ko nyan db? I still said yes and went. Pero ang bano ng facilities ng school. Seriously. Some of the projectors are not working, the professors are not professional (imagine that ha) and I am not liking my course. I`m just taking Nursing lang naman in the name of money and para stable ang job but other than that, wala na talaga. Tapos dadagdagan pa ng stress sa school. :| Bullshit.

One thing na hate ko talaga sa Junior College is that, hindi organized. :| Super. Db when you're like enrolled for instance sa La Salle, every sem you get your schedule? Meaning everything is set, all you have to do is do good sa school and nothing more. Dito? God. Poproblemahin mo pa yung subjects mo since paunahan sa slots tapos you have to go ask you counselor pa if what dapat ang kukuning subjects and kung ano ang dapat hindi kunin. It`s so unorganized and I am so not sanay. Naloloka ako. Tapos since I want to transfer sa Univ in the future I have to take consideration pa their lottery. Lottery meaning- random yung pagpili kung they'll let you transfer na or not. Super fuck. What if I`m done na with everything pero hindi ako naka pasok sa lottery? I will just stay bum muna for awhile? That`s bullshit man. Tapos yung pre-requisite pa nila is so mahirap. Parang nag Univ lang ako e. Shit. Another thing, ang gago ng system nila. One time nag bag down yung system and parang something was wrong and they had my friend pay over $1000 just for fall sem alone. Since my friends was like tatanga tanga she paid it naman and they just took the money. Tapos na laman laman na lang namin nagkamali pala sila. Eh kung hindi pa pala mag rereklamo, hindi ibabalik yung pera? Ang bano talaga, shit.

Sorry na. Kapag school talaga, I`m so na sestress. Suppppper. Goodluck na lang tlaaga. Sana I would find the love for school within me na talaga. Kasi habal tumatagal I`m hating school na. :| Super nakaka stress out. Andaming pinoproblema pero kung nasa Philippines ako, isa lang poproblemahin ko dun and that`s how to do good in school. :| Haaaaaaaaaaaaaay.


It has never been and issue to me if you people like me or not. I was not born in this freakin world to please each and everyone of you to start with. I`ve been getting negative feedbacks about my blog entries and whatnot here in MY SITE and I just don`t fuckin care. I don`t see any wrong with saying what I want to say in my OWN blogsite. I didn`t ask you to read my posts, didn`t I? Nor pushed you to add me as your contact or threatned you to go see my videos and pictures. You did that at you own will and I have nothing to do about that. It was your choice so why rant? If you don`t like what I`m writing here or what you basically see, then you are always free to remove me as your contact because seriously, I don`t give a damn if I only have a few friends in here. Mabuti na yun para onte lang din makakabasa ng shits ko. Or if you don`t like to remove me as your contact because you`re a little nosy bitch, then write out a blog as well. Something feirce, something bitchy, something random, something boring, something moving, something dramatic, something similar to mine.

I actually don`t hate people. Seriously. Just like what Jasmine said "we don`t hate, we just curse. so fuckin much". Hating is not our thing, I just get pissed with narrow minded people, they suck big time. And c`mon you are aware that I only get into "fights" when I`m pushed to. Contrary to what other people are saying, I am not a warfreak. I amj ust fighting for my own right and for what I think is right. I won`t just stay silent all my life when people are throwing malicious things about me or if when people start backbiting me and all that crap. I wouldn`t just stare at them while they break me. That is soo not going to happen. I know where I stand and I stand right infront of your face ready to smack you down if you do me wrong. I am not threatening you or something but I just want to make this all clear. I am a sweet and loving friend but once you get on my nerves, you are so dead. Call me a bitch, I don`t care because I already know that since day one and I would continnuously bitch around. Cuz you know sometimes, people needs to know their bounderies and they should try and shut up for once.

I know we have reasons why we keep a blogsite and mine is just to keep in touch with my family and friends back home and to kinda update them with my whereabouts and whatnots. I don`t keep this blogsite just for my vanity alone or for just to let people hear my sabog voice and my grooves in my videos. I keep this as well so that I would have something to release all my depression, rants, my happy moments/kilig moments and all that. Blogging is my therapy and it does lessen the burden I`m feeling. I don`t blog only when I`m happy or when I`m kilig, I blog about all sort of my emotions so don`t come telling me that my blog is either offensive, feirce bitchy or super mamabaw. Dude, do your own shit and I`ll do mine.

And to those people who loves reading my posts thank you so much, cheers!



Omg. I just got a super bad news from Erika. She was telling me that Manang Seychelle's Mom just past away 6am this morning. :| I feel so bad for her because she doesn`t get to spend so much time with her mom na nga since she goes to school in Iloilo tapos this would happen pa. It`s so saaaad. :| We will really never know when God will take our love ones away. :| It`s so sudden, so unexpected. I wonder how she will take things now that her Mom died, thinking that she is graduating na this March. How will it affect kaya her Mom`s death? I just hope she`s fine and she`ll get through this as quickly as possible. She`s been so good to me and I just have good things to tell about her.

I was kind of contemplating after we chika-ed (Erika and I) and I was thinking, if that happened to me I could've committed suicide. Seriously speaking. I wouldn`t take that. I am really a Mommy's girl ever since and we`re really tight as shit so I can`t even picture that to happen. I am just but thankful that God is good and I still have both my Mommy and my Daddy especially my 2 beautiful Grandma's in the Philippines.

After this incident, I it just went through me that life is indeed short and we will never know what will happen next- only God knows and Him alone. Right now, I just don`t want to think about negative things. I just want to thank God for all the blessings he have given me and my family and for keeping them alive and healthy. And I wish Manang Seychelle would feel better naman because I know she`s pretty close to her Mom and it`s not easy. She`s a tough girl and I know she`ll get through this.

Manang Seychelle, if you happen to pass by I will surely include you and your Mom in my prayers. Stay strong and though we`re not close like we used to before you know that you will always be my orginal Big Sister. :) Just have faith and live it all up in the Lord, you have your family and friends with you to go through this and God will never ever leave you. xoxo.



Happy Birthday to be Best Tita in the whole freakin world!

Tita Zony, happy birthdayyyy! Happy 36th birthday. Yey, you don`t even look like you're 36. You look more of like a teenager, more of just like my age! :) I wish you more birthdays to come and hopefully you'll find your new love na. It`s not too late yet, you`re still young, enjoy while you can Tita! Hahaha. Db db? I know it`s been a tough decision for us to leave you and Mama behind and not being on your birthdays just sucks. :( Thinking that were used to this already- celebrating birthdays together every single year. I hella missed that but more so I miss you and Mama the most. It seems that life is not like that way it used to be. Its so much different now that we only get to communicate through friendster/multiply and a freakin phonecall. :( We miss you guys so bad!!

Aright, since its you birthday pa thank you ko anay sang super bongga. Hahaha. Thank you tita for always making me feel that you're always there. Even though we may be 8000 miles away you never fail to ask me whats up and how is everything. You're almost like my bestfriend- actually you are bestfriend. Thank you for all the advices that you gave me back when I was still in HS up to now. Thank you because you never hesitated to share your thoughts with me about your boys and just about random things. You just don`t know how much that means to me. Thank you for covering up for me especially when mom and dad would go nag about my boys naman. Hahaha. Thank you for always listening to my rants though sometimes it`s so annoying already. Thank you for all the material things you have given me from my baby dress when I was 3 up to my numerous havaianas now that I am already 18. Thank youu too because you were never harsh, you were never tight and you never made me feel that YOU'RE THE TITA and I am just your neice. You always tend to weight things and I love you for that. Thank you for always making me feel that you are proud of me when my parents don't let me feel the same way. Thank you for understanding my unpredictable attitude because instead of you hitting me with hammer on my head you talk to me and make me understand things better. Thank you for spoiling me. Just like what I said earlier you are the one who supplied my havaianas slippers and all that fancy things. For always taking me out for either breakfast, lunch or dinner, for taking me on a shopping out of the blue, for giving me unexpected loads (so i could text my boys) and for everything you have given me. But most of all thank you for your unconditional love and for just being there til the end. Thank you for acting as my 2nd mom when mom can`t sometimes be there for me.

You have been a great inspiration to me since then and I will live on with all the lessons you taught me. You know for a fact that I am always here for you no matter what and I just wish you the best. I could not ask for any other Tita but you. You are simply the best not only because you *cough* SPOIL *cough* me but of course for loving me just like you own daughter. If I die today and live again and God would give me the chance to choose my Tita, I would still choose you. You are one of a kind Tita and I love you and I know you know that. Tane maging happy ka na gd and makakita ka pa sang someone who will love you forever and would take care of you for the rest of your life. But rest assured man that Me, Rj, Max and Vito will always be here for you and we will surely take care of you when you get older, thats a promise! :) Hehe. I love you tita and I miss you so much! Happy Birthday liwat!! :)) Mommy said gale nagniwang ka gd kuno. Ayude. :p



His smile- My god super priceless!!

okay feliz i know you will make me sunlog ako for the nth time for putting up Zanjoe`s picture but my intention is not to somewhat contrast this to my fake Zanjoe. Haha. He is just super cute here and I can`t help but get kilig. Hahaha. Swear, Zanjoe is currently the love of my life and no one else. Well maybe some of my boytoys who are being an ass to me as of the moment but all is all. Anyhow, people in the Philippines please do watch Dyosa and Varga. HAHAHA. Sorry naman biglang nag promote. :)) Now that Z`s getting loads and loads of projects hopefully this is continuous na. I love you Z, super happy cuz I will get to see him on screen for 6 days na. Whoohoo. Haha. K, don`t deny it people he is really cute. Hahaha. Just look at that smile oh? Super nakakatunaw. No wonder Mariel got really hooked with Z. Haha. I kinda just realized that. Haha. And omg, I really never thought he is funny! Mygeez. Super nakaka inlove. Haaay haaay hayy. Can I die? HAHAHA.

K bru actually 50 50. Haha. 50 sa fake 50 sa tuod. Sorry na, adikk e. Haha. Pero imma get over this soon. Basi subong lang ni but nevertheless, he is really such as sweetheart. Haha. I just don`t want to make amin kay I don`t really want to fall for him. Muna lang. Hahaha.

Anyways, Morconss! Did you just see the elive episode last sat? God, swear i died talaga. Hahaha. :)) I back watched sa website ni leslie (thanks les!!) and omg, napanood ko yung last year na celeb and i died for the second time around! super busog weekend ko today. thanks to z and m! :D whoohoo. Hahaha.

Btw, thanks Nang Hasi for the picture! It made my day! :)) Hahaha. Imma print that out! Haha.

K just so you know I am a certified Zanjoe Addict! :)) HAHAHAHAHA. I completely got over Jake just like 3 months ago and after that I started to engage myself to Zanjoe and Zanjoe alone. HAHA



I MISS HOME. Period. :|

Family from QC just called in today I mean like an hour ago and I wasn`t able to talk to them. Damn it. I was in my deep slumber when they called and I think I did hear them talk for quite awhile but since I was really sleepy I didn`t care and went back to bed. :| I should`ve gotten out my bed and talked to theeeeem. Now I`m regretting. :|

I miss them like fuck and now I am home sicked again. I never felt this like in the last 5 months but it went baaaaack. Daaaamn I hate America. Seriously people, you will really hate it here. Especially when you`re really close to your family and you already had establish your relationship with them and and your friends. :| I want to gooo baack!! Bring me bacck homeeeeeeee! Yes you do earn more but money is not everything. I don`t really get the idea of why we even moved out. I mean we`re not really the high-classed society in the Philippines or whatnot but I guess we could pretty much eat a decent meal 3 times a day.

My Lola would go "T its for your own good. They have good schools there unlike here." Pssh like okay. UCs are the only good school here but I won`t get my ass there not like after 2 years or even more or maybe I won`t even gonna be studying there cuz I will be moving to Australia!! Hahaha. K, random.

Summer of 2009 please come quickly. I can`t wait til my next flight back home. :(( I miss my home, I miss Roxas, I miss the Philippines. :(( America is not my home. Never my home. I`m not even freakin proud that I`m here, I despised it here. Whateverrrrrr. K, Imma end this shit.

Emo blog. K whatever.


K, I`m depressed. :
I freakin got a low grade on my last speech which was the persuasive speech.I already have a feeling that I will be getting a low grade but idk, I just feel so bad. I feel so dumb. I got 40 out of 50. That`s A- or B+ I`m not sure but I am still not contended with my grade. I mean I know I could`ve done better, I just didn`t give my best. : I procrastinated a lot and didn`t memorize single shit so I ended up reading my entire oral footnotes and tripped some words. Hella embarassing. And my VA's didn`t work out very well as what I expected sooo yeah. : I`m just a little sad though because there`s no way that I will be getting an A in that class. That`s just so impossible. It`s even more frustrating now because this is my very 1st class in college and it was one easy shit but I didn`t even do good at it. : Very BULL.

Maybe I was just a little confident last time because when I had my Informative Speech my professor said he was impressed and shiit and I just turned that down. : Shit shit shit. I haate myself. I seriously need to focus. Damn it. :

Now I am really determined to pull off a ground breaking nerve wracking high energy kind of speech next week. I swear to God I will leave my classmates in awe just like what I did on my informative speech. I just hope and pray that I will still be getting atleast a B on thi class. I seriously won`t take a C, I will surely get my ass soberrrrr or I might do suicide. HAHA. Kidding. :))

But seriously though, I think I did very well on my 1st 2 speeches but I just blew my Persuasive and Midterms so I`m kinda scared buttttttttt let's just hope and pray for the best. Pray for me. Pray that I might get atleast a B or something. I don`t want to walk out on that class getting a passing grade, that is just sooo not me. I only walk out on class with a passing mark on Math, not Speech class or any English related class. HAHA.K bye.
Make me feel better. :


There are only a few people who knows the real me. The cry baby super soft harted me. Infact I have so much love within me that I am willing to share, I have soo much sweetnees that I am willing to show, so much effort that I am always willing to exert but you know what sucks?

As time pass by and as I meet new acquaintance, new friends, new prospect lovers, new suitors and new boystoys they just get "assier" "suckier" "tae-ier" and all the nasty things you could think of. So do you think I still have all the strength to bring back the old me? Mann, I have had enough!

I thank the Lord for He has been very good to me lately. He made me realized quickly that if you`re weak, sweet, naive and gullible enough, people will take you for granted. They will never ever consider your feelings for they think they "own" you and all these are for plain FUN. Like damn you? For heaven`s sake. Nobody really owned me. Asa ka pa! Now I know the mechanics of PLAY and be PLAYED. I`ve been played so many fuckin times. Yes, I was indeed played by numerous of guys. Well not really but I could name a few but I would rather not.

To those people who did me wrong? Thank you and Eff you because now, I learned how to fight and play games better than you do.

If you think I`m just another bitch down the road, you better think twice because baby, I am bitchier than ever.
I am feisty as feisty could get.
I amStronger, smarter and better.
The new and improved me.

People say revenge is sweet? Well suprise surprise baby, it`s payback time and I will get on your nose as soon as I can. All the boys who took me for granted, to all the boys who toyed me and thought I was Barbie for awhile, you will be seeing me more frequently- putting my middle finger up and I saaaaaaaaaay "fuck you. You just slip the girl of your dreams and you will never ever fckin findo another girl like me." Chyeaaaah.

And ugh no. I was never the pa easy to get kind of girl. Never. I`m more of like Miss. Wants to know everything before actually talking to the guy.

Let`s just put this way.
I was just weak back then and they took the advantage of it. I was never the type of girl who says "yes we're together" right after having sex on their first meeting or right after they kissed on their first meeting. I was never like that, it just so happen that my "love suspects" were a little gentle, they were a little careful and I thought it was realy for realz.

But Uh-uh. Those ways of flirting will be banned in my dictionary. I will be more careful and this time it`s not going to be them who will enjoy, it`ll be me. :D I`m a little flirt so I advice the lonely boys out there, to ugh watch out. Just like what I said in my previous blog, I don`t do forever I only do flings. The only time that I`d engage myself in the word "forever" is when I`m with my First Love. YES. I hate him but at the same time I fuckin love him. No questions asked. But for the mean time, I will play their games. I will be enjoying every moment of it! Seize the moment! HAHAHAHA.

They say Life`s full of shit?

Yes it is. Life`s full of shit, so shit with it. Just like I`m shitting on love! :D


I miss my KTGS.

I`ve been hecka busy lately and I haven`t really talked to anyone of them. Guys, we need some catching up to do! Hehe. Adrei, Hannah Marie, Sammy, Leslie, Ate Kate, Ate Dacy and the rest I missed youuuuu guys! Seriously. I miss Hannah Marie and our random Ym convos. I miss Adrei and her comments. I miss Sammy and our Gossip girl chikaas. I miss talking to Ate Dacy. I miss Leslie and our serious talks and not-so-serious talks. I miss Ate Kateeeeeee period! :D There's just so many things I miss about her. Hehe. Hohmygaaaath, serry for bein nostalgic slash emotional. It`s friggin 3 in the morning plus I`m listening to slow rnb love songs= cheesyness. Hehe. Buuuh I don`t care. I just want you guys to know that I miss you, period.

I know you guys are busy too, college sucks yeah? Haha. Nagkakasalubong nga tayo pero most of the time school works gnagawa naten. My gaaaath. I don`t have any news from you guys anymore. Super nakakasaddd. Update me as soon as you can mkay? I missed you loads! Take careee guys, I heard super buhos ang ulan jan. Haha. Magdalaaaa ng payong baka magka sinat kayooo. Haha. Loveyouuuu!

P.S: lapet na August 10, what shall we dooooo?! :)) Hahaha. Update nyooo ko! Hehehe.

Seriously, na miss ko kayooo. :| Ang panget ng feeling kapag hindi nagcoconive yung scheds tas hindi na nag uusap. Supppperrr. :| Nakooo.




I just figured out today that shopping is really my weakness. :|| Which is not a good thing I guess because aside from the fact that I waste too much money on clothes and shoes, I get really agressive and I won`t stop til I ran out of money. Damn it.

Just today, I pretty much wasted nearly 200 dollars for clothes, shoes and all my kabigaan. By the way, Kabigaan in tagalog is kaartehan. HAHAHA. Anyways, so yeah. I bought 3 flats from Gap, a brown Mariel-ish wedge which was on sale in Payless, a floral summer-ish dress, a purple skinnny jeans, a purple scarf and a purple headband all from Forever21, 2 stud earrings and 2 tote bags from Wetseal. :| I was helluh enjoying and shit not til I got home and tried to tally how much I just spent today and how much money I have left- and to my dismay I only have a less than a hundred. Daaaaaaaamn it.

So from now on, I promised myself to always always think 231778317238174 times before actually buying whatever I want to buy because when I go shopping I don`t really care about the price as long as I like I`ll buy it. So this time I have to be smart. Hahaha. I have to be wais and buy stuff that is on sale. HAHAHAHA. :)) Sometimes abi those stuffs that are on sale are not the trendy2 kind of clothes more so they're like the super buki and super old style you don`t even want to wear so I always go for the "new arrivals" or those clothes that are not on sale. But however I learned just to today that I should not always be like. I have to be effin practicaaaaaaaaaal. Mahal na ang gas. Hahaha. Connection? Idk, I just want to bring that up. :)) Anyways, I just made ubos my money. I only have a few left and I still have freakin 2 weeks to go before class ends so by that time I still should have a cash in hand kay I will be broke wala ko daan allowance if there`s no class. Shit.

Oh well, it was my fault so whatever. I enjoyed naman so it`s cool. HAHAHAHAHA. :)) Finally after 39183917313198 years, I was able to shop again. Loveeee you Forever21!! I love you cuz you have soo much purple in your store, God knows how much I love the color purple. Hahaha.