I'm growing up!! And to be frank, it scares the hell out of me. I know it's inevitable, but it doesn't make it any less scary. I used to be really impatient when I was little because I wanted to grow up really really fast and be 18, but now that I could see it coming, it doesn't excite me at all- not even close. Well beside the fact that I fear of growing old alone (since I don't have a boyfriend yet) I also fear that anytime soon I will be leaving my comfort zone. After my 2 years in MJC Mom would like me to go to UCLA or UCSF to finished my Nursing degree and I can't even picture myself out living apart from them. Seriously. So you could just imagine that in a span of two years BABYE Mommy na and as in bonggang bonggang hello world.

I'm starting to reflect back on my life and there are a bazillion "what if's" going through my head. Mostly about my love life. And that scares me too. What if I let the right one walk out of my life. I know I'm still young, but in reality I'm really not all that young. I'll be 18 in less than 2 weeks my ghod. Feels like yesterday I was just little 13 year girl terrified to start high school because it meant only 4 years. I'm afraid, I don't do well with change, but it's a fear I have to confront. I just really hope things work out well and how they are supposed to. Goodness. Life, PLEASE SLOW THE HECK DOWN. I'm not ready :[