ONE DOWN, 3 more to go! :D

I got my assessment from Mr. Sahlman right after I delivered my speech and surprisingly I got 48 out of 50! :)) Yey! Well it wasn't that bad at all though because he was telling me that if only I managed my time well and I nailed that 5 freakin minutes, I could`ve gotten 50 points instead. Haha. Asking how much time I exceeded? Well, it was pretty much not more than 3 minutes but he was strict as hell so he didn`t consider that. Ghod, imagine naman kasi I was demonstrating how to do the Basic CPR and it`s not possible for me to cut down important details just to finish it by 5 minutes. I have to tackle every detail because CPR is one serious shiiit. I was telling my Mom to cut some important details off but she was like "Anu ka ya man? wala na to mabalan classmates mo simo?" Ugh, K. So there. :D I`m just glad I did good on my 1st speech. And now I am looking forward for my Informative speech that'll be done on the 31st simply because I will be talking about the Good Ole Philippines. Hurrah. I will be reciting the Lupang Hinirang and such and I can`t freakin wait. HAHAHAHA. :)) I`m only bothered about my After Dinner and Persuasive though but I don`t want to think about it just yet because I don`t want to screw up my 3-day off from school! Hahaha Whoohoo. Thank you to those who wished me goodluck, you were my lucky charm when I was up the stage. HAHAHAHA. Thanks. xoxo

However, we will be having our midterms this monday so I really wouldn`t get to enjoy the whole 3 days because I will be studying and do my next outline. :|| Gaaaaaah, summer school sucks. I should have not taken SPCOM during the summer. :|| It pretty much eats all my time and I don`t even have the time to watch My Girl anymore. How sad. :((

3 more weeks.

3 more weeks.

and i`ll be done with summer school.
:))

P.S: My classmates call me Angelica. :| Errr. Cuz I wasn`t able to go to Red Cross yesterday to borrow a dummie, so I had to find an alternative and I brought Angelica with me. You know the bratty litol girl from Rugrats? Right. :|| I know she`s cute but I just don`t like the name Angelica. It sounds so godly, so angelic. Hah. Geez, I`m not even close. HAHAHHA

kbye
xoxo


It`s MONDAY!- Hurruh!

So I was feeling the monday fever and I was quite excited to go to school. Aside from the fact that I already finished my outline and I have something to show my teacher, I`m excited to see my Korean friends. Hahaha. Seriously they entertain me a lot. Their accent is really cool. I`m not being sarcastic or something but it`s just so effin cool like ice.

So going back on the topic... I woke up helluh early today and had my morning shower though it was effin cold. I straightened my hair and it took me 20 minutes to find my outfit. I swear to God my room is a total mess again for tryin crapload of clothes. So finally after 20 sweet minutes, I already had my outfit in my bare hands and it`s a cute purple top with yellow ensembles. I was eccentric about wearing it because as I remembered the last time I wore it was when I was still on my vacation in the Philippines so it was pretty much long time ago.

I paired my top with a purple flats and a yellow/purple purse with matching yellow and purple bangles. Ghod, imagine how I looked. Haha. Mommy was telling me how "over matched" I was but I just didn`t care. I always wanted to look good so I always have to match. I put on a little make up and then I left.

Daddy drove me to school today and on our way there I was really happy. Idk why but I was feeling a little odd because I`m not usually like this. I mean way back HS I don`t really enjoy going to school. Hahaha. It was a waste of time. Hahaha. KIDDING. No, seriously cuz I have be there effin early in the morning and since I`m a sucker for sleep and much of a nocturnal, I always end up being late or worse not go to my 1st period class. But this morning, Ghod, it was seriously absurd. I woke up at 6 and finished by 730. So I was like Whoa, I`m not really that excited to go to school.

I was walking on my way to Founder`s Hall where my classroom is located when I heard people talking and shizz. I was really feeling it because I felt that I had the cutest outfit today and it`s Monday so people are always present. Hahaha. When I finally got there, I saw my classmates walking back to the parking area and I was like What the fuck? I went closer to the door of my classroom and there was a computer paper posted over the window of the door and it says "SPCOM 100 Class 7:55-11:00 AM. Today's class is canceled." After reading it I gave in a deep breath and screamed "HOHMYGOD! Today's class is canceled?! Daaaaaaaaang it!" Like seriously.

Hah, wow. Thank you so much Mr. Sahlman for cancelling your class. Nag effort pa naman ako to look good today but you basiclly screwed that up. Damn it. HAHAHAHAHA. So now I`m back here at home, bumming. I`m effin up this effin early. What the hell am I goin to do? Errrrr.


Dahil birthday ni Baby Zanjoe magboblog ako in tagalog. Hahaha. Connection? WALA. Hahaha. Mkay, naun pa lang talaga sumink-in sken na July din pala si Baby. Haha. Hindi ako makapaniwala kasi. July din sya. Mygasss. Naman, boyfriend ko sya pero hindi nya na memention na July 23 birthday nya. Hahaha. Umeemo kasi yan minsan, kaya secretive msyado. Haha. So ayun.

Tsaka kmusta naman db? Zossimo pala name ni future dad. Haha. Parang Mossimo. Haha. K, walang kwenta. Hahaha. :)) Loko lang. Hindi kagwapuhan tatay nya pero bakit sumisigaw talaga ang kagwapuhan ni Z? Haha. Pati yung abs nya grabe kung maka eksena. My gas. Haha. And wait, si Ate Ma yung nag greet sa knya sa Asap kasi hindi ako pwede. Actually ako talaga dapat dun. Hahaha. Feelingera? :)) Pero seriously tinawagan nila ako sa bahay, sabi ko napaka private kong tao kaya hindi ako pwede gumanyan. Hahaha. Major pilitan pa nga yung nangyari pero ayaw ko talaga. And since si Ate Ma naman yung obvious special friend nya, sabi ko ayun, siya na lang. :D Hahaha.

Ayun. We will celebrate Z`s birthday dito sa States. He called me a week ago and sabi nya I`ll go directly to Chabot College sa Hayward since super lapit lang namin dun. Dun daw kami magmemeet at mag SasanFrancisco kmi. Haha. Mag dadate dw kami sa Golden Gate kasi. Hahahahaha. :)) As in sa mismong Bridge, swear. Haha. Ang sweet db? Sabi ko nga sana dalhin nya na din si Ate Ma para mas masaya. Haha. Tapos ma eechapwera si Z kasi super maguusap na lang kami ni Ate Ma. hahaha. Iuupdate ko lang kayo kung ano man ah. Dito ko lang talaga kasi nishashare sa blog ko kasi nga dba private person ako? Ayoko ng sbrang exposure. Yun na! Hahahaha

Ay wait pahabol, sabi pala ni Z sa lahat ng nag comment sa album ko na "eu ess gwapo" thank you dw. Sobrang na appreciate na dw yung mga comments. Hahaha. Nkita nya dw kasi e. Susweet nyo daw. Awww. Ayun. Hahahaha

P.S: Ate Dacy remember the himas himas? Hahaha. Yehes, it` your time to shine kasi narineg ko sumakabilang bahay dw si Z at lumipat sa inyo. Awwww! :D hehe.

P.P.S: Sorry na. Hahaha. masaya lang ako kaya ako naka gawa ng ganitong blog. kalerky ba msyado? haha

Happy Birthday Z. Love you.


Chor baby gorl is sick. :| I have fever, soar throat, colds and my allergy is killing me! Damn it! But then I have no one else to blame but myself. It was partly my fault though because I knew it was coming but I didn`t care to tell my mom about it and completely forgot that I still have crapload of stuffs to do- pero now that I`m a little weak and my body`s not fuctioning very well, I`m starting to get really really nervous. :|

Mkay, just to let you know I am not yet done with my outline. Yeah, greaat. I`m still pretty much figuring out what to do and I`ve been really researching my ass about CPR yet I still couldn`t find the right terms and the proper usage of the words. The medical terms used in the internet is very much complicated and I still need to tone it down so that my classmates would be able to understand those kind of shitss- considering that I am the only person who is Majoring in Nursing in that freakin class. Damn it. I already started the introduction and half of the body but I get spaced out most of time so can you just imagine the amount of time I`m wasting. Ghod, seriously. This speech class is taking too much of my time and look at me now, I`m pretty sick and goodluck na lang sken on Thursday since I`ll be having my very 1st speech. Kmusta naman yung boses ko db? Hindi naman kasi sya gaanong sabog because sa colds. Tae.

I know I should've followed Mommy`s advice. Maybe I should`ve done some cooking or did the Yo-yo tricks so it would be easier than this fckin Basic CPR shit. My reason was, since I am Majoring in Nursing and I already have my license in performing Basic CPR why not grab the chance and show my Professor what I got right? RIGHT. But I seriously never thought that researching about the origin and shizz would take this long. I mean it`s a long process. I have to consider even the simplest things because CPR is a very serious matter. Like OMG. Patience patience patienceeeeeeeeee. I`m running out of patiencee. Seriously. I just wish that I will be done with my outline by tomorrow and by monday I could practice my speech. Goodluck to me. I seriously need everyone`s prayer. :|

P.S: You know how cool my parents are right? So mkay, I`m here at my house all alone with my brother. My parents left for Ex-fest and they will be seeing freakin Blake Lewis and Simple Plan tonight! Damn it. Just because we`re under 21 we can`t go na? Unfaaaaaaaaaaaaaair! I bet my parents are now waving their freakin hands and singing their heart out!! OMG.


SPEECH CLASS- Dreadful!
ktnxbye

weeks go by very fast and in 2 weeks time i will have my after dinner speech already and it`s fckin killing me. wth? im a fcking joker myself but i just can`t fkcin joke about anything in fckin english! hahahahahaha. i don`t really mind about the pursuasive and informative because it`ll be very easy shit but then the after dinner speech? fck it.

i tried to make them laugh this morning but it wasn`t very effective. damn it. haha. i looked so stupid up the there this morning. seriously. and my friend was even like "whoa, did you just throw in a joke?" like fck you man, i just did! hahaha. owel owel owel, wish me luck guys i badly need that right now. demonstrative speech will be done next week and i haven`t done my outline yet. fcker. im too scared. i`m demostrating how to do the cpr only because i already have a little knowledge about that. and guess what did my mom suggested? why don`t you cook something? like puto for example? why yes, mom. I have spanish speaking classmates and puto in spanish is kinda of not a nice word. hahaha. mkaaay, i`ve been talking nonsense againnnn. im serrry i just can`t get over my speech class and the impromptu i did this morning- it was really horrible.

when will i fckin overcome my stage fright? like seriously dude, i wanna do good in my demonstrative, informative, pursuasive and especially in my after dinner speech. i want it to be perfect! daaaaaaaaamn it. and i`m still worried about my diction and accent. haha. baaaaaah. i dont know if i still have my accent though but whatever, im worried about a lot of things but im crossing my fingers- i will do good next week and mr sahlman will fckin clap his fckin huge hands! dudeeeeeeeeeeeeee, speech class is stressing me outtttttttttttt! i need starbucks!



Forward it on 2:30
Okaaaay I got goosebumps yet again for hearing my name being greeted by someone who is a celebrity or whatever you may call them. Hahaha. I was like Whoa, Boy Abunda just uttered my name and he fuckin murdered it. He was like Happy Birthday to PAWLA ROULDAN like wth? Hahaha. But I loved it, I loved it! Thank you so much Ging and Begs for doing that. It was really sweet of you guys! Though Mariel wasn`t able to greet me on my special day, atleast you had her manager do it for her, and I think that`s fair enough! Actually it was too much gd gani. Thinking pa that you went to Abs just to have me greeted on Tv, it was really sucha sweet gesture. Nahuya na lang ko. Hahaha. I loved it thank you so much. I showed the video to my Dad and my brother and they we`re still in awe up to now and they still kept on asking me how you guys did that. Haha. Seriously, it was really sweet and even my Daddy, he appreciated it. He was like "lantawa mga miga mo bisan ari ka na d, ga himo sila gapon paagi to make your birthday extra special". Awww. Thank you gd and it made my day! Now I really feel so special. Hahaha. First it was Bianca Gonzalez who greeted me in TFC Connect and then now, Boy Abunda just greeted me on National television. Isn`t that cool? Hahaha. God I`m so lucky for having friends like them. I don`t know what good action I have done for me to deserve all these. Thank you guys and I thank the Lord for giving me such a sweet and loving friends like you. I love you all! xoxo


What a surprise! Daddy got me a new camera today and I can't hardly believe it! Ghod, Daddy?! Hahahaha. Are you kidding me? :p So okay since my birthday is really coming up, I was asked by Dad if what do I want to get on my birthday. So I was like I want a new camera with better mega pixels and optical zoom. I didn't really stressed that I wanted a SLR since it's too much to ask plus I am not really good in taking pictures. So there. When I woke up this morning, Taaaaaaada! I already have my camera beside me and OMG I was about to cry but I held on to it. Seriously it was really sweet of him. I couldn't say anything except for Thank You.

He got me a Canon Poweshot Sx100is. He said, he based it on the reviews online thats why he got the idea of buying it. So I was likee okaaaaaay. Hahaha. It has loads of features and I loved it. Seriously. Though it wasn't really something that I wished to have, atleast I have a new camera. Plus it has 10x optical zoom and 8 mps, so that's fair enough.

Thank you dad for yer gift. It really made my day..

Hmmm. Hey guys can you suggest a name for my new baby?
My old camera is nameless so this one should really be named. Hahaha. Hit up the comment box for your suggestions. I'd love to hear from you...

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Okay this has nothing to do with Bugoy (the pda scholar, since he is known for this song. haha). But this has something to do with my long lost super gwapo (or not really) and super tall crush. So okay, I accidentally found him in Friendster yesterday and ghod I was so happy. I don't know why but seriously, it made my day. He was my first high school crush that's why he really does matter to me. Haha. Yehes, HS crush is wayyyyy different from your elementary and college crush. Haha. But seriously though, he was the first guy who caught my eye way back frosh year and knowing that he also felt the same way before I did, is just so fxckin awesome. Hahaha. I miss him though, I have no idea where he is right now. It has been pretty much 4 long years since the last time I saw him and actually heard of him after that- Nada. I just hope he can still recognize me cuz he won't-- shit sya. Hahaha. Buuh whatever you know, atleast I found him na and I could constantly check on him. HAHAHAHAHA. Yeheeeeeeees.

New love life? Echos. Hahaha.

Mkaaaay, that was it. Goodnight loves.
P.S: His angels brought me to his profile. HAHAHAHAHA. whutts? haha. k, bye.
P.S.S: The "angels brought me here song" was his profile song and I kinda got stucked listening to it over and over again. Hahaha. I heard this long time ago na but then everytime I hear it, I would remember him and our "fun" times together. Haha

Hi Vondee Chua. :)


Boo. I know I changed my layout once again. It's just that I couldn't find the right skin for me!! Damn it. I've been browsing through Blogskins for almost 3 hours now and to tell you guys honestly I haven't found any neat works yet. I tried looking for Gossip Girl Skins but none of them suited my taste. I mean they all look okay but I wanted some interesting look on it and I was just so disappointed that I didn't see that in any of those skins. So I just decided to pick this one just because it has a vintage-y look and i love the color teal. Fair enough? :p Lol.

I seriously wanted to learn how to come up with those fckin html codes but I just can't. I swear to God, I tried my ass but it didn't work. Too much epistaxis dude, I tell you. I also tried reading through the pre-made skins and ghod I didn't get any single shxt. I know it pays to be patient sometimes and I just have to read through the codes for me to be able to initialize everything but you know me, I get tired easily and I always as in always end up hitting the X button and to hell with everybody I will just get the codes through Blogsskin and I aint going to make any shxt.

Hahaha. Whatever. Another senseless post. I'm sorry I'm lost for words. I'm heading off to bed.

P.S: It's July 5th today meaning------ theres only 8 more days before I finally turn 18. Yeahyeah!!

--> SPOILER AHEAD <--
I got this scoop from Entertainment Weekly Magazine.

OMG! Are Blair and Chuck back together? Yeah right. In this Hamptons-set party scene from GG's Season 2 premiere (Semptember 1, 2008), Meester explains "We're talking about the love that cannot be." The two will, however, resume their usual bickering. "There's going to be a lot of....insults and evil plans." That's the Queen B we love.
"I root for them because nobody understands Blair quite like Chuck and vice versa. She still has feelings for him. Maybe he made a mistake- who knows?"

- Gossip Girl's Leighton Meeter, a.k.a Blair Waldorf on the future with Chuck.

OMFG. Now that I have read way too much spoiler and it pretty much screwed up my excitement IDFC, I just can't wait til Spetember 1st! Whoohoo. Chair Moments yet once again, ohh love it!! (btw, there's actually a photo with the said article but im too lazy to take a picture and upload it over multiply, but it has something to look forward to!! Blair looked fabulous as ever and Chuck has his new hair style.- he was actually rocking his suave summer look.)

I'm growing up!! And to be frank, it scares the hell out of me. I know it's inevitable, but it doesn't make it any less scary. I used to be really impatient when I was little because I wanted to grow up really really fast and be 18, but now that I could see it coming, it doesn't excite me at all- not even close. Well beside the fact that I fear of growing old alone (since I don't have a boyfriend yet) I also fear that anytime soon I will be leaving my comfort zone. After my 2 years in MJC Mom would like me to go to UCLA or UCSF to finished my Nursing degree and I can't even picture myself out living apart from them. Seriously. So you could just imagine that in a span of two years BABYE Mommy na and as in bonggang bonggang hello world.

I'm starting to reflect back on my life and there are a bazillion "what if's" going through my head. Mostly about my love life. And that scares me too. What if I let the right one walk out of my life. I know I'm still young, but in reality I'm really not all that young. I'll be 18 in less than 2 weeks my ghod. Feels like yesterday I was just little 13 year girl terrified to start high school because it meant only 4 years. I'm afraid, I don't do well with change, but it's a fear I have to confront. I just really hope things work out well and how they are supposed to. Goodness. Life, PLEASE SLOW THE HECK DOWN. I'm not ready :[


I will let this survey do the talking.

1. Why did you stop loving the last person you loved?
I still love him though but I just have to forget about the feeling.

2. Are you usually heart broken?
No. I usually break THIER hearts but it abruptly changed. It's now me who is suffering from a broken heart.

3. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
Cherrios

4. Quote from the song you are listening to.
"and thats why i love you so dont be afraid to let them show your true colors, true colors a beautiful like a rainbow"

5. How is life going for you right now?
Getting the hang of everything.

6. Regret(s)?
Hmmm, yeah?

7. What was the first thing you said when you woke up this morning?
"ano to mom?"

8. Do you have A best friend?
I don't have a "best" friend but I have true friends though.

9. Have you ever hated someone,
Yes.

10. Have you liked someone, but ended up hating that person so much?
Nope.

11. Why?
Because it always comes down to this: Everything happens for a reason.

12. Do you believe in chances?
Yeah

13. Will you give a chance to someone, who made a very big mistake in your life?
Probably.

14. What do you think of people who have sex before marriage?
I don't really have the license to judge them in any way. It's their choice, so be it.

15. Do you own a pair of green pants?
Yes. Green skinny pants.

16. What are you excited about?
18th birthday.

17. Do you believe that what comes around, goes around?
Yes

18. What is your favorite fruit?
Banana, Apple, Orange, Watermelon, Grapes and a lot more. I love fruits!

19. Now hows your relationship with your last ex?
We're good friends.

20. Do you hate her?him?
Who? :D

21. Do you miss your ex?
Yes.

22. Which ex do you miss?
Tilos - calm down, i just "miss" him mkay?

23. When is your birthday?
13th of July

24. Memorable comment you had?
There's quite a lot.

25. Are you going to search a new girl/boyfriend now?
No. I'm fine being single. I really don't have to look because it'll just come along.

26. Do you like someone right now?
I still like my ex. :p

27. Last person you had YM with?
Erika.

28. Last person you texted?
..

29. Last person who texted you?
..

30. Last person to whom you said, "i love you too"?
Hmmm. Lady.

31. Anything you want?
Forever Bliss.

32. Does it hurt when you love someone but they dont love you back?
It fuckin does. Doesnt it suck when he knows just how you feel about him and he doesnt do a thing about it because he just doesn't care? Damn it.

33. How does it feel when you see someone you love happy with somebody else?
It crushes my heart everytime I would see/know that they are happy. It's the most dreadful feeling in the world, I should say.

34. Have you ever felt like that?
Why yes.

35. How long was your last relationship?
1 yr and 5 months

36. Can you forget all of the memories about you and your last love?
Hmmm sure do but with regards to my first love- it still lingers.

37.Do you still think about her/him everyday?
About Tilos? Of course I still do. It's almost like a habbit already but I always make sure to wash him off my mind. Gaaad, why is it so hard to move on? :|

38. Do you still hope that you can get him/her back to you?
That little hope I have is still there but just like what he said, He loves his girlfriend and I guess that was an obvious answer that he doesn't want to get back with me anymore- never.

39. Why?
just because.. :( there's wayy too many reasons why we have to get back. I know in my heart and in my soul that we are destined. Since day one, I knew that he was the "one", but I had my blinders on. :(

40. Are you going to find another woman/man and replace her/him?
No. He will never be replaced. :(

It was just merely about 6 days after he turned me down how come it felt like it had been so freakin long? :(( Why me? Why do I have to go all through these?