You guys have to congratulate me for not thinking about Tilos for almost a week now. I told you, it will come to a point where all my feelings for him will just fade away and little by little I won't be thinking about him anymore. It's kinda bizzare though because after I blogged my last entry about him, it felt like SWOSH it's all gone. I'm not saying that it's premanently gone but I am working on it and soon enough it wouldn't hurt no more.

I've been trying to keep up with things lately and I think I`ve been doing a good job. I already took off his pictures on my wall, I took his picture out of my desk, I took his pictures out of my wallet, I deleted his pictures on my laptop, I deleted the videos I made for him, I am putting a gap between Me and his friends or one of his Family members, (except for Justin Fuentes, cuz that is not going to happen. haha) I am flirting with this one guy and soon enough I will delete his Friendster Account so I wouldn't have any access to him anymore. Oh Shooooor. Hahaha. I'm not quite sure about that but we will see.

I guess I am already on the stage of acceptance. Or is this just for a while? I'm not sure but what is important, I am making ways. I don't want to be a Prisoner of Love forever, I don't want to mourn all my life nor wait for someone who would't even care talking to me. Like what I've said before, I think after all that I've been through and after all the heartaches I had, I also deserve to be happy. Even though I am doing all these stuff to help myself forget about him, he will and forever remain in my heart. I may never had the chance to win him back and lost the battle of love, atleast I had all the guts and tried my ass. :]


Tilos,
All I want for you is to be happy, after all you're my best friend. I can't beg you to stay if you want to be with someone you truly love. I don't have the license to own you but it's just so hard to let you go after all that we've been through together. I thought our love was forever, I though I will always have you but what is left for me are the good memories we made together. I'll always have our memories. And she will always have you. Sweet fate has a way of changing just when we don't want it to. So now I will throw away the chains, I'll let our love fly away.

I am putting up my white flag. It's okay though because even if I can't have you, at least I was able to know I had you.

Til our roads cross again, Tilos Mikhail.