Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Revised Bday Wish.
Okaaay guys I am going to revise my bonggang "Birthday Wish" (scan over my previous posts) to a very absolute yet very significant desire I want to receive on my 18th Birthday. Before, I always thought that 18th Birthdays should always be celebrated in a very bongga matter and Debuts are always pinagkakagastosan but I came to a clear realization that not all debuts are celebrated that way and I am not going to celebrate mine "THAT WAY". I may be very materialistic and maarte most of the time but I am so like Blair Waldorf. She is a fuckin' bitchy girl on the outside but a squeaky shallow kid on the inside. So here are my "revised" Birthday Wishes. :]
- The only material thing I really want to have on my Birthday is the Powershot Canon SD950. Compared to DLSR, Sd950 is a lot cheaper and would really satisfy my need in photography. (I'm not really into photography, this is just for my own biga or in tagalog, kaartehan.)
- I want to be greeted on National TV by Mariel Rodriguez. Yes dude, I am big fan! :] Hahaha. I know it's quite impossible but I thought about it couple days ago and that is one priceless gift I really want to receive on my birthday. I want to hear her say "Happy 18th Birthday to Paula Roldan of Modesto California! I love You!" Haha. Okaay the "I love You" is optional since we haven't met yet, but she could still say it in order for me to be "extra" happy though she doesn't mean it. Hahaha Orrr somebody could simply record her say "Happy Birthday" even if it's not on National Tv. It doesn't really matter, as long as she greets me I'm fine. I think I have to make an effort in talking to my Uncle who works in Abs and my Cousin as well for that big big favor.
- I want to finish my Maths in College with a better grade. I pretty suck at it so I am really praying to God that he'll help me go through this. Maths is not my cup of tea obviously and I am afraid that I might flunk my subject and end up taking it over and over again. Oh hell no!!
- This is my daily prayer but whatever! I want Papa God to still lengthen the life of my Mama (Grandma) and make her as strong as I am. I can't picture out myself living without Mama. That's like living with no food to eat and no water to drink. :| And also of course, Good Health for the entire family not just Mama.
- And last but not the least, All I want Papa God to help me fix things up between me and Tilos. I am really hoping that we could be friends again or at least just fix whatever that we have to fix before my birthday. It's already killing me and I can't take it no more. So please please please please if God can't do anything about it, be my guardian angel and help me with this?
Made love @ 2:47 AM
As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care.
Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)