I'm freakin pissed right now like you have no idea how pissed I am. If there is such a word that surpasses the word pissed well then, that is what I am feeling. So okay here's the thing, we just got our State Tax and yet before we got that we already planned about putting the money first in the bank while we're still looking for a decent house. All is well not until my cousin in the Philippines came all hyped and told my Mom and she knows someone that could help her fix her papers so that she could work abroad. No questions about who the fuck could help her go abroad but the question is how much money does she needs?! Well surprise surprise she told mommy that she needs 2fuckin hundred thousand pesos for her to go abroad! Like what the hell? Thats like 4fuckin thousand dollars right here! >:( She knows very well that we don't have that much and that we already took hold of our savings because nga we are going to buy a house. I don't actually complain about them asking money but the thing is, sana naman wag nilang sagarin. I know Mommy has always been a bread winner and with that she feels that though she is already miles away from them she is still oblige to give. I am actually not agaisnt that, never. They are still my family and whenever they need the money we are surely going to give, Mommy will surely do anything to help them but sana they wouldn't make asa kay Mommy the whole time. :(( Mommy is not a robot that she could work 12 hours a day, 5 times a week. They should also know that she needs to rest and just like any other human being Mommy gets tired as well. Working here as a Nurse is no joke. You walk around the halls of the hospital pretty much the whole time and if you're unfortunate enough and you'll be placed in a busy floor then dead sure you'll be walking back and forth going and out of the rooms for 12 hours. And Mommy does that almost everyday of her life. She doesn't even have any social life anymore, frankly speaking.

Aside from that, it hurts me seeing Mommy all grumpy by the time she goes home because nga she is very tired. It even hurts me seeing her all tired yet she still wants to work so that she could send MORE. It hurts us seeing Mommy working her ass off and by the time she gets her paycheck she couldn't even buy herself a new pair of shoes or a new shirt because her mind is already set that all her money goes out to her family in the Philippines and all her accords left there. I just hope they also do understand that it is not only them that Mommy has to feed, it's not them alone that mommy has to work for. They should also know that Mommy has already a life on her own and that not all the time she has something to give them.

I have been told by her that If she continually give, she knows she will continually have. I know, I get that but Mommy should also think that what if she continually give and she'll never know that there's none left for us? That's also one thing I hate about her, she never thinks. Bigay lg ng bigay. People might say we are being selfish and that gusto namen samen lng pera nya but that is not it! They thought na if you are already here in America yaman yaman mo na, hell no LADIES AND GENTLEMEN (joke), if you think Mommy earns a lot of dollar here isipin din ninyo na ang ginagastos namin ay dollar din.

Sorry for this super random blog. I just have to let this out. I'm super like filled with problems which in the first place I shouldn't be scraping about. Just so you know guys, this is a serious matter. Family problems is worst as f*ck. :( I'm just hopeful that by the end of the day Mom and Dad will talk about things in a peaceful way. Sometimes kasi Dad tends to shout while Mom that's one thing she hates talaga so tendency is, they'll collide. :((

I just tend to be positive na lng and I always put in mind that Life is indeed Sweet. I put all my trust in the Lord na lng and His WILL will be done.