"When you feel the world hated you, remember that they hated me first- Jesus."

In honoring the lenten season, the Tan, Roldan and Fuentes' family had a DVD marathon yesterday and we all chose to watch The Passion of the Christ or what would my Lola calls Ang Paghigugma ni Kristo. The first time I saw this, it really didn't move me to tears, not at all. Apart from the way that the language they used was Hebrew, Latin and Aramaic and i was having a hard time catching up with the subtitles, I fell in deep slumber inside the Movie house which I was screamed at 2 times. Well not that extreme scream though but she kept on tapping me but I wasn't paying attention. So anyways, though I fell I sleep I'm pretty sure I understood the plot of the story. :p Not only because I learn it at school but also everytime Mommy would tap me I would be awake for like 10 minutes and saw some part of the movie. But I really regretted when my classmates started sharing how good the movie was and that it even made their faith stronger and more touching stories and I was left deadpan. Sure I can read my Christian Living book over and over again but it wouldn't give me the satisfaction my classmates got when they saw the movie. I was then really eager to watch it but too sad the DVD has not yet been released during those times that I was really anxious about watching it until such time that I lost my interest and forgot about it. It was just then yesterday when we were all sitting in the couch waiting for the kids to finish getting all the eggs, I stood up infront of them and said "Watch tayo Passion of the Christ? Holy Week naman dba? Tas Easter Sunday na. This is it na?" :) Lol. I sound so perky but that's how I really said it.

The movie was not at it's highlight yet but I was already lamenting like a little girl who lost her Mommy. I was crying really hard and my facial expression while crying? Gaaah. Tita Jane: Ang priceless ng mukha mo Pao! dami kang kasalanan no? Hahaha. It was indeed PRICELESS! So instead of crying, I stared laughing my ass off but I was still engrossed by the movie and I continued to weep some more. The thing that was running through my head while seeing Jesus being scourge is that in every sin that we commit we are like them romans who scourged Jesus to death, he almost died. I became really emotional then because I know I have sinned a lot my whole life but I never really thought about that. I mean I know that Jesus was our Savior and He was crucified because He wanted to redeem us but I never thought it was that violent. Tears started dripping off my face again as I see Jesus stumble and fall as He carry the cross, I almost felt like going inside the the big screen and help Jesus carry His cross. I didn't move in my seat the whole time I was watching it. Suddenly random thing came up in my mind again and I wished that I was Veronica who wiped Jesus' blood-soaked face. A lot of things really were running circles in my mind but thoughout that time, I was repenting. Seriously, I really was. I said countless of sorrys for all the sins that I have sinned against Him and said my thankyou's for all the blessings He unlimitedly give me and my family. I feel ashamed of myself for sometimes being self-centered when Jesus gave up his life to live his accord just for us. :(

The movie was excellent. It didn't only made my faith grow even stronger but it made known to people that Jesus is worthy of our love and that without him we wouldn't be here today enjoying His father's bountiful creations. Sometimes, we really tend to forget about God, especially when we're at the peek of our lives. We sometimes forget that all the things that is happening in our lives, it is all because of Jesus, our Savior. One peculiar thing most people doesn't know about me, Paula Roldan is in one point of fact one heck of a believer and a very religious person. I may come very sarcastic often times but it's true, I am religious. I am proud that I'm Catholic and I am very happy that my Parents raised me as one and that discipleship was our way of life. Even if some random people would go ambush me with stories about different religion, sure as hell they can't convert me! So just a little advice from a little gorl like me. Right before you go bed think of the things that happened to you on that day and think atleast 5 reasons why you should Thank God. :) I swear it wouldn't take too much of your time and 5 reasons won't hurt you anyways. Just atleast 5. :D Good way to start Easter huh?:) New life, new you, Salvation.

Happy Easter Everybody!