I know I should've realize this since then but just recently, I came to think that THIS SHOULD END. Way back 4 years ago I had this against the world fight with this girl whom everybody would refer as my "twin". Of course knowing that people would always compare us and they would address us as twins makes the situation more complicated. So okay, the fight was too petty, too petty that I came to realize it was just a piece of crap that I should've ended since then. We talked shit, backstabbed each other in the same group of people, cursed me/cursed her from morning til dawn and worst due to our unending anger we made our fight public. Everybody would calm us down and make us think that we're too old for elementary fights like this but nobody could. If she'll make up a stupid bulletin saying crap about me, I too will do the same. So you could just imagine how the fight went and how angry we were. I hated her so much. I really did, I hated her so much that I, myself couldn't get a good night sleep anymore. She was like a boogieman in the night or an eight legged freak ready to attack me. So basically she was the ugliest freak on earth that I won't bare seeing. I prayed hard to God that he wouldn't let me see her but for some odd reasons I always get to see her and guess where I would always see that biotch. . . CHURCH. Technically it was sign for us to just stop fighting and forget about all the things that had happened in the past. As far as I could remember the fighted lielowed for sometime. That was like a year and a half later. But the hatred continued, she still hates me and I still hate her.

But to cut the story short, she hates me til now. Until now that it has been 4 years and I don't think she still have the reason to. I admit I still get pycho whenever I see her or whenever I just pass by her house in Roxas but for Goodness sake, I don't hate her anymore. That was all in the past and I have moved on.

I just don't get it how she still hates me. I tried talking to her, approaching her and making her feel that all is well, let's be friends now. But nothing happened. I just made an effort out of nothing. I may be very sarcastic most of the time and people find me warfreak but to tell you honestly if I'd say I don't hate you, I really don't and that's final.

Is she just being immature? or am I being judgemental? I really don't know. But I just want to get rid of this heaving thing in heart. I know she stil hates me up to this very moment and I dont know how to say sorry or even where to start. I just consulted my uncle who is a Priest and he told me that the best way to say sorry is be sincere. If you would come to think of it, it's as easy as saying it. But me? saying sorry? It wasn't all my fault right? BAAAHH!!!!! I'm confused. But one thing's for sure, I dont hate her, I'm ready to reconcile with her. endofstory.

I'm just scared that maybe she'll just shrug and do nothing. MAN I CANT SWALLOW MY PRIDE!!! I don't want to say sorry first. fuckeeeet. WHAT THE HELL SHOULD I DO?!