People have been asking me lately why the hell do I admire Mariel Rodriguez where infact she trash talked a lot of people in the business? With simplicity I tell them, I like her simply because she has a genuine heart which most people doesn't appreciate. I have no idea of the full extent of what Mariel has done inside PBB house fairly because I was on my way to the Philippines that time and when I got there I was too busy and I didnt had the time to just even turn the TV on. It was only when I gotttt here that I finally go the whole story.
As of her profession, what she said inside the house was, as we all know wasn't appropriate. Sure, she was boozed up a little bit and she never watched her words but hey, doesn't we all have blonde moments? She was only unfortunate that she was on tv and everybody heard what she said. In what she has done, she may have offended loads of people but we were born to have our own rights/opinions and point of views! So why does everybody have to smash her with controversies and hate her like she has turned the world upside down? and who are them people makes false indictment about her that she's like this and she's like that? Stop hating people, you don't even know who the real Mariel is.
And to those Riza Santos' fans, no offense guys but aren't we all here to support the people we admire? We all have the same intention. The intention of armoring them with love and support all the way and making sure that they're not being ambushed by controversies or whatnot. We all have the same purpose. And remember, Mariel was sorry. She really was. Just move on and enough with the hating!
I wrote this whole thing not only to defend Mariel but also to make known to people that she is also a HUMAN BEING. She is capable of making mistakes. She has her own flaws and whatever bizzare things that she does in public we know that she has her reasons. You've heard the saying, "don't judge a book by its cover" right? What people doesn't know, it is the inside the counts.
It has been almost a week now since I took my Assessment test at MJC yet I am still anxious about my test result. I know I could've done better if I reviewed and if only I wasn't that confident about myself. I freakin expected too much, way too much. I must know God was laughing at me when I flunked my test. lol. But anyhow, I believe everything happens for a reason and in some point I know His reason. :)
I'm now preparing for my MATH test. Geez. Just by thinking that in a matter of 3 days I will be talking another heart-pounding-body-trembling Math Assessment test. Honestly speaking, I never liked Math. Never. I always loathe math since then. Not only because I uhh, fail most of my tests but because numbers make me go crazy just like that! Math has been and will always be my weakest subject. No matter how hard I try to study and no matter how much time I put on to it, it just doesn't work at all. Maybe I was cursed or something. HAHA. But anyhow I am still hoping that this time, I will get an "okaaay" test result. I am not aiming for high scores i only hope that I could get through the basic Math which is the Math71 so that would be my last one.
Well moreover, so much of those crap. It only makes me MORE jumpy and all. I hope that YOU whoever's reading this, please include me in your prayers tonight. Please. Please. Please. Pretty Please? I need your help and just by praying for me would mean a lot. :D Thank you.
Kisses to all.
Happy Valentines Day Everyone...
So what's up with me this Valentines day? Well, pretty much nothing. I woke up hecka late today. I woke up Kung Fu Kids na which was about 2pm. Then I heard a ring sa room, it was my daddy calling. He asked me if what do I want for lunch cuz they're at Panda Express that time, I said I didnt want anything. I dont know how to explain it, but do you know when you're really really depressed or you're really really tired and you don't like to eat anymore? That's how I felt. IDK why. Maybe because its Valentines Day? HAHAHA. Too cheesy. No. Maybe because, uhmm... I cant think of any reasons at all.
I remembered wala na kmi that time. He sent me flowers sa school and guess what kay cno sha nangayo favor? Robby. So anyways, back to the story, before sha nag hatag flowers. He sent me 2 letters which he actually wrote, with his cute penmanship. He poured out his feelings sa letter, he was even blaming me, asking me what have he done ngaa natapos na lng or why ga iwas ko. :( Cute pa kay ang letter, d na mashado basahan cuz he spilled his perfume on it kuno kay he wants nga hamot ang letter while na read ko. HAAAYY. Those little things he makes bala, na miss ko. But not only those, of course sha gd msmo.
ANYWAYS so much of my DRAMA. HAPPY VALENTINES TO EVERYBODY. :) Single, Taken, Reserved, Taken for Granted, Flirting.. basta to everybody. Sa mga taken, never let your partner feel he/she is not being loved, always show affection. lil piece of advice from someone who took love for granted.
just had a stupid arguement with my mom couple hours ago and guess what ginapapuli na niya ko sa Philippines kay I'm useless kuno. Oh wow. Those words just went right through me. A mother saying USELESS to her daughter? Isn't it a little bit foul? Baaah, whatever.
Wala gd ko ga ano sa iya. I was sleeping then I heard her voice. bal ya to ay Hindi ka pa da mag bangon? Kuhaon mo man bay transcript mo sa school? Te, since I've been going in and out of our school campus almost 2 weeks from now, and they haven't released my transcript dw gn wad-an ko gana. So I said, I will go at about 11:30 kay usually muna time cla ga release. Nakibot nlng ko when she got all hysterical and she was screaming her heart na telling me Dapat wala ka na anay nag graduate, bum ka malang d sa balay. Pati transcript mo wala mo nakuha. Late ka na sa mga deadlines sa schools mo for college (yes mother, late gd ko. March pa deadline) nahimo mo lng d sa balay, kaon tulog kag internet. Nano ka nlng imo ya, wala ka man ga ubra. Wala ka gd pulos nga bata ka. Pumuli ka na lng to sa Pilipinas kag didto ka mag college! Wala ka pulos.
Wow. Thanks for those inspiring words Mom, it made me feel better. Can you just imagine? Kakabugtaw ko pa lng cna ha. It's a good way to start my day, hearing my mom say that I am nothing but useless. Very touching.
So now, I am actually looking for a school that offers online Entrance Exam. I know UP does, but hell no, I ain't goin to that school. Patay ko to. HAHA. I want to take Tourism or HRM. But the problem is, i dont know what school kdtoan ko. DLSU and SPUM offers Tourism and HRM? I guess. Pero HOW?
I know I should've realize this since then but just recently, I came to think that THIS SHOULD END. Way back 4 years ago I had this against the world fight with this girl whom everybody would refer as my "twin". Of course knowing that people would always compare us and they would address us as twins makes the situation more complicated. So okay, the fight was too petty, too petty that I came to realize it was just a piece of crap that I should've ended since then. We talked shit, backstabbed each other in the same group of people, cursed me/cursed her from morning til dawn and worst due to our unending anger we made our fight public. Everybody would calm us down and make us think that we're too old for elementary fights like this but nobody could. If she'll make up a stupid bulletin saying crap about me, I too will do the same. So you could just imagine how the fight went and how angry we were. I hated her so much. I really did, I hated her so much that I, myself couldn't get a good night sleep anymore. She was like a boogieman in the night or an eight legged freak ready to attack me. So basically she was the ugliest freak on earth that I won't bare seeing. I prayed hard to God that he wouldn't let me see her but for some odd reasons I always get to see her and guess where I would always see that biotch. . . CHURCH. Technically it was sign for us to just stop fighting and forget about all the things that had happened in the past. As far as I could remember the fighted lielowed for sometime. That was like a year and a half later. But the hatred continued, she still hates me and I still hate her.
But to cut the story short, she hates me til now. Until now that it has been 4 years and I don't think she still have the reason to. I admit I still get pycho whenever I see her or whenever I just pass by her house in Roxas but for Goodness sake, I don't hate her anymore. That was all in the past and I have moved on.
I just don't get it how she still hates me. I tried talking to her, approaching her and making her feel that all is well, let's be friends now. But nothing happened. I just made an effort out of nothing. I may be very sarcastic most of the time and people find me warfreak but to tell you honestly if I'd say I don't hate you, I really don't and that's final.
Is she just being immature? or am I being judgemental? I really don't know. But I just want to get rid of this heaving thing in heart. I know she stil hates me up to this very moment and I dont know how to say sorry or even where to start. I just consulted my uncle who is a Priest and he told me that the best way to say sorry is be sincere. If you would come to think of it, it's as easy as saying it. But me? saying sorry? It wasn't all my fault right? BAAAHH!!!!! I'm confused. But one thing's for sure, I dont hate her, I'm ready to reconcile with her. endofstory.
I'm just scared that maybe she'll just shrug and do nothing. MAN I CANT SWALLOW MY PRIDE!!! I don't want to say sorry first. fuckeeeet. WHAT THE HELL SHOULD I DO?!
As what they always say, the cover doesn`t describe the inner content perfectly. I live my life the way i want it to be and as much as possible I don`t want anyone to take control of it. My parents and I usually argue just about everything because I stand by my principles. If I want something to happen, even if my parents won't approve to it, I'd still do it. I'm almost an adult and no one tells me what to do. I want I don`t consider myself "normal" because normal is boring. I go beyond that word, but I am not abnormal either. I'm just different from other people which makes me unique. I wear the fanciest clothes, paint the brightest nail colors, wear the most hideous make up but I don't care.
Contrary to what others are saying not a war freak, I just speak my mind, and for the most part I don`t think before I act. I speak sarcasm and a lot of people get offended by it. I have changed a lot, and I thank America for that! =)