Mama just called in a while ago and you know what that means. Yes dear, for 3 days consecutive, I've been crying my ass off everytime Mama would call or we would call her. :(( It just feels so incomplete without her. Maybe because I'm used of having her beside me and since I grew up with Mama always by my side, It's really freakin hard to leave her. The day I left Roxas was the worst thing that had happened in my life so far. :(( I bursted into tears when daddy said Pao pa babye na kay Mama boarding na Gezz like you dont even know how I cried that time. I was really sobbing that I couldn't even catch my breath. Plus I saw Mama crying too, it felt like my whole world trembled && my heart was totally crushed. The whole time we fled from Roxas to Manila I was really crying out LOUD. Like almost everybody in plane were asking Mommy what happened to me and my brother. It was kinda embarassing to think that we actually sobbed in the plane but we actually didn't care. Our concern was Mama and that we will freakkin miss her big time. :(( I just hope she could come here as soon as she could get. I'm looking forward this June because she promised me she'll be here for my Graduation and my birthday. I just hope she truly will. :(( I'm freakin the saddest Panda alive right now. I know Mama's suffering from extreme sadness too just like what we feel, I just hope Papa God will give her enough strength para d sha mangluya. :(( I love you Ma! *tears*

She said I love you pao (for the first time in my whole life.) right before she put down the phone and it meant the whole world to me.

I'm uber/mega/super/extremely/exceedingly/extra/greatly/violently/intensly/drastically sad right now and I'm tired of crying. I MISS MAMA. :((