F*ck it dude. Im currently studying for my common final for health right now and I dont feel like it. I feel hella sick right now and Im no in good mood to study.Just because my teacher was grumpy last period it doensn't mean that in the middle of wilderness he'll just come up to me and tell me I'm taking the test the day after tomorrow. F*ccckk eeetttt! I even remember him saying that I could take the test right after when I get back and it wouldn't even matter at all. Just as long as I will take it, my grades will be fine. But here he goes, he came up to me and told me that I better get the test on thursday or I'll a D on his class. Like that's soo freakin messed up. Grrrr. I hate it when your teacher's so old school! So anyways, yeah I just have to deal with it and fuckin study my ass off than flunking the subject though its freakin against my will. Fuck iitt. I'm just fuckin pissed cuz though I blabla here, nothing will happen whether I like it or not, I will still take the fuckin test. BOO!

Nowicki is such a badass teacher!

Well for some weird reasons, I tried talking to my "old" sis through friendster. But I think it didn't work though. She stopped commenting back which is of course an obvious sign that she doesn't want to talk to me. :) But all is well, I have no grudge against her and somehow, I made her feel that I moved on and forget what happened in the past. I just hope she did too and the rest of my friends. Keeping anger within ourselves is not healthy. It could bring a whole lot of damange, pranoia is one, and I know it fer sher. Oh well.

7 days before Christmas you guys. Isn't it exciting?


hellznaw fer me.


Waaaah. Can you believe it, I only have 5 more days before winter break and one more week before I actually go home to the Philippines!!! Whoohoo! I guess no one in this big damn world is extremely excited than Paula Roldan && Family. Seriously dude, we're just so high these past few days because after almost a year when we left Roxas, we'll be back home, back with our families and friends we missed the most!

But well, except my mom though. She has been really negative about going home because she knows that people would expect a lot from her. You know what I'm saying? You know how Filipinos are, once you got to America they think you're super rich na. So she fears that people would go ambush her and ask for money. Another thing that she's anxious about is our dreadful gastos when we get home. She expects it to be tremedously gastos to the max. She even told me that "Pao, please naman. Hold on to your excitement kasi I know ma shopping ka naman to one way or another." And she's actually right I will take the advantage, everything here in America is EXPENSIVE and we all know that everything in the Philippines is cheap so yeah :)) But I will not exceed to my limits though, I will try not to cross my mom's border line. lol

Speaking of mom na sermonan naman ako today. Because since its Sunday, today is a day of procrastination. :D I have quite a lot of packets need to be done before I leave yet I procrastinated and I was stuck in my laptop the whole day today. I'm kinda worried though because I know for sure that by the end of the week, I'll be recieving more packets and I dont think I will be able to finish that before I leave. Grrr. This is just driving me craayzeee. Just so you know guys, I will be given a whole bunch of packets on Friday because Im on our what we call "Independent Study". Since I will be gone for almost a month, I need to take IS and do all the packets even though we haven't really tackled that certain topic. Mr. Baum told me that the best thing to do is; bring all my packets and books to the Philippines so while I am there I could work on it and I could study as well for the finals. I was like OKAY? Does he really mean it? Cuz he does, it doesn't really help because I will never ever bring any packets in the Philippines not even my books. HELL NO! I will savor every minute I am there and I won't even dare waste 1 second of my time while I'm there. So I really need to start doing it, or else I'll be really forced to bring it home!


My feet are sore, my back is aching, my nose is freezing and my whole body's cold. I just got home after 5 hours of non-stop Christmas shopping and it felt so good. :) I know I've been bitchy about the upcoming Holiday lately but I dont know, I felt the presence just today. Maybe because I was able to buy all my friends some good stuff and maybe because I set aside the fact that though we won't be in the Philippines for this year's Christmas we know that we will always be in their hearts no matter what. ♥

Anyways, I get to wrap all the things we bought today and I am so happy because I could actually wrap a gift now without any help from my mom. Isn't that so cool? LMAO. Yes you read that right, this was my first time wrapping gifts for Christmas. I used to help my mom though but it really doesnt last because I'm busy doing my own work and I'm usually out. So this time, I made up to my mom and instead of her wrapping all the gifts I volunteered to do it. She was all "NO THANK YOU PAO you'll just kill it like you always do". hahaha. I can't blame her though, my role before was just to cut the scotch tape and that was it. But she was really amazed when she saw me doing all the work and I was enjoying doing it.

Tomorrow is techinacally the first day of Simbang Gabi and for the first time is several years, we won't be able to go. First, there's no mass in our Church and we have to go all the way to Stockton if we really wished to but it's a 45 minute ride. Second, my mom has to work the following day so it would be hard for her because she's a heavy sleeper. And lastly, we're doing our laundry today, I mean we're actually doing it right now, 12:16 am. Yeessss. We really doing it because we're leaving the week after and we still lack clothes to bring, so there. :) It's kinda sad though because we used to really go to church throughout that nine days but now, we couldn't just some lame old reasons. Hay hay hay. :[[ This makes me depress again.

I just hope that one day when all is well, we could have our little talk just like before and rekindle the friendship we once had. There's really a lot of things i missed doing with her, words are not even enough. But somehow though our frienship failed, I am still thankful that once in my life I met a gaga/buang/adik/shunga-shunga friend like her. :) I don't hate her anymore. Actually I never hated her, I just had to loosen up our connection because of the incident and I don't like issues. Plus my friends were really affected so I didnt tell them that all these time, I still and will always consider Donna "My Sis".

Today is just any other stressful day for me. I had to shower a resident today and I was paired with some Mexican chiq that I didnt even like. >:-/ So okay, I was getting the sheets ready, the bath blanket and those kinds of stuff and all she did was sit down, talked to her friend and ask me favors. Like WHAT THE FUCK DUDE!? talking about work here! Then she would act like she knows everything. She goes "Have you done pericare? If not, then do it now we're running out of time." and I was like "Okay?" If only I wasn't educated enough just like her, I could've slap that bitch or worst I could've stuck that dirty brief into her mouth. Seriously dude. I started my day so bad and she just made it worst.